I woke to another day of disapproval, I looked over my body and examined myself . I touched my face , my stomach , my thighs , just my skin . The bumpy surface on my thighs made me feel imperfect. Myself mutilation I admit I’m at fault but it makes me feel good to see that I can remove what I feel isn’t wanted , down fault of things I can not wear dresses or skirts to feel beautiful .
People I mistook for friends , took advantage of me . I won’t say his name but I’ll call him Cam; he got alone with me , my stupidity over took me and show’d that I’m really am pathetic for thinking someone could like me . Cam, spoke magic and touched my skin that felt burning . I let him kiss me but kissing for him meant let’s go all the way . He pulled my hair out , pressing is lips hard against mine , holding my hands together as he peeled back the layer of my innocence. He whispered words I can not get out my head . Why do I hate myself ? Simply because I’m used human flesh . I’m body is nothing but useless flesh that I find displeasing .
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You can be as beautiful as you want people will always use us in some way but if they abuse us then its only us who can do something about it there are still some people out there who have true hearts and souls they are jusr hard to find sometimes but keep looking
i know i cant possibly know how ur feeling but ur not pathetic or stupid for being taken advantage of reasons- u didnt know what his intentions were, u could not have known that he was that kind of guy, u didnt put urself in that situation on purpose u did not know he was such a threat to u. With those reasons being said what happened to u doesnt put u at fault. dont b displeased or hate urself, if u do that then all those people who have done harm to u, they would win they would get what they wanted. I obviously dont know what u look like but looks arent everything im not that great looking myself but it doesnt mean that good things wont happen in other parts of life. mayb u werent handed the perfect genes mayb ur not a 10 but it doesnt mean u cant b happy. The media and society in general especially in the us have people think that they should strive to b these glamazons these super amazing top models but the vast majority of people do not fit the perfect 10 image having looks or beauty isnt everything u can still find things to make u happy. idk what ur friends r like but i think one of the best things u can do is find things u can do without them that would make u happy without having to involve anyone else somepeople r just like that sometimes for me being alone every now and then keeps me sane lets me do things that make me happy without feeling judged by everybody else. I hope my little essay was at least sort of helpful im not trying to tell u what to do with ur life these are merely just things to think about/consider.