How can it be possible to want to die and end everything one day, and then wake up feeling like a new person the next? Â I think this is why I’m so fucked up. I can go weeks with feeling depressed and cutting and hating everything and everyone around me. But then out of no where, I wake up and everything is fine. I feel like my normal self again, and I actually feel kinda happy. But where does this come from? Why does this happen? Maybe someone here knows…?? I would really like to try and understand what exactly is wrong with me. I want to try and recover…but how can I recover when I don’t even understand my disease??
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This is exactly how I feel as well but in a slightly different way. When I wake up and when I’m at school, I am truly happy. But when I go home I become so depressed I cut and just lose control over myself. I don’t understand it either. It’s sucks, I know. But I guess we just have to cherish those moments when we don’t feel sad, because in the end that’s what keeps us going.
Im not a doc, but it seems to be an imbalance in brain chemicals.
If you can go to a doc, perhaps they can identify whats going on, and get you stabilized.
Seems like a good place to begin.
It sounds like you might have bipolar disorder