I’m sick and tired of my life and the people in it, all others do is take take take and don’T give anything back. You wake up people annoy you, get you down, what’s the point, what is the point to life, in fact is there a Point?
I self harm, it used to help, it helped a lot, the physical pain takes away the emotional pain. the people who supposedly are close to me was upset when they first found out but that soon changed into “oh your just doing it for attention” wow are you being serious? That annoys me so much. people like that don’t understand and never will.
The strange thing is my life isn’t that bad, some people would say its good but I’m just sick of it. I’m sick of people making me feel the way I do, I’m sick of people hurting me and me not being able to say anything back because it will upset them.
Some me day I have really good days and I wish they would last more than 24hours but there’s always something that changes it.
Maybe it’s time to end things, at least that way I don’t have memories of certain people enjoying life then not enjoying life with them. If there was a process to erase certain parts of your memory I would gladly do it, but alas there isn’t, so sucide is my only option. Maybe it will be an option for this weekend who knows.
Maybe it will be sooner x
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You may not be able to erase memories, but you can change how you feel about them over time. Nobody is a fixed point – points aren’t really relevant when it comes to life. It’s more like the clouds in the sky, all moving everywhere and changing constantly. You might even feel differently tomorrow than you do right now. But anyone trying to take without giving is probably just as miserable as you are because of them. Why else would they do it? The idea seems to be that if they take your happiness, they’ll have it for themselves, but it doesn’t work that way. You get what you give.
I understand what your saying, I’m took sensitive and emotional and people take advantage of this and know exactly how to hurt me. I wish I could be different, Iv tried but I just can’t.