My girlfriend told me she was in her friends pants (I hate that friend). And it hurt because I’ve been cheated on a lot at this particular time of the relationships. After that I went To class. Class ends and its after school. And her friend walks down the school hall we were at and says “your gf was in my pants” and walks off I told her I didn’t care and she needs to shut the hell up. My gf goes “you care” and I wanted to cri. I went home, so did she. I asked what she meant by what she said and she said that she had rips at her knees on her pants and she was playing with them. This was weeks ago. She told me she will never cheat on me and that she loves me. I cut and drank and almost overdosed and I made myself get sick and gave myself a bruise on my stomach. I’m still crying about it. I can’t stop thinking about it. My chest STILL hurts. Why is this? Is it because I’m stupid? I’m so scared. She made me promise to never cut but its getting REALLY, REALLY hard. I don’t know what to do. I just want to cut. And she says she gets upset that I talk to one of my friends about my problems and not her. I just don’t wanna bring her down or hurt her. I just don’t know what to do.