Hi Guys,
Umm…. So I think I have decided something… I’m not going to continue with these posts… Sorry… It’s just I am running out of things… My life is now boring… I mean all it is now is wake up, starve myself, go to sleep. I mean do you really want to hear that every day?
Sooo yeahh…. If you do want me to continue just leave a comment saying so…
How am I? Physically: Meh, could be better, but it could be worse. Mentally: My mind is chaotic.
My physical state… Well you know how I injured my shoulder maybe a week ago? Yeah well last night I slept on it funny and now it hurts soo… yeah… Physically how am I? I’m not in pain, well except for the shoulder and the headaches I’m doing okay…
Mentally… My mental state… Well I’m recovering a bit… Umm at really late at night I get these bad thoughts… These suicidal thoughts… And I don’t know how to stop them… Which is a bit hard… I mean these thoughts come at like 12 am – 3 am and no one is up at that time sooo… can’t really do anything about that…
Overall how am I? Getting better, slowly, but then I get a wave of depression and I don’t know what to do
Here’s a poem:
i cant take it
i cant
please stay
please stay with me
please
i beg of you
just stay
talk to me
and distract me
please…
and you’re gone…
Au Demain
4 comments
I don’t mind. I’ve read several keep it up.
Its let’s us know your still here and let’s you know that someone will always be here.
I want you try something. Maybe you should comfort another here on SP and talk to them. Don’t get overly involve in their lives but show concern for another. Ask people how they feel. Try making things not about yourself anymore but for others. Please I don’t mean offense, and I’m not saying or trying to imply anything but I just want you to try it out. See what It can do for you.
It has helped me. I know I won’t get better, I’m left to deal with a tremendous amount of pain in my life. But it helps, it gives me light to listen to others and try being there. It really helps and makes me feel I’m not such a bad person anymore. I may not be here forever or much longer in that sense, but I wanna know I left behind a life where I at least tried to make a difference even I’m the face of adversary.
LetItGo, I believe I have read every post of your’s. I do search them out. The best I can with the computer skills I have. I will be happy to read through to day 100k. Or until you find another way to express yourself and no longer need to post. In short, keep posting my friend.
Also, The Koji, as he usually does brings a valid point. Carefully read his words. There is no one size fits all key to unlock depression’s hold on you. However, maybe this could be part of the process.
The Koji has a great point. I haven’t posted my situation on here becuse talking to others about theirs has helped me. When I registered this afternoon I could barely see through the tears but helping others is giving me a sense of purpose.
It’s worth a try anyway.
Much love