I am a 16yr old guy and I feel like I want to die, go crawl into a hole and rot, I have been thinking a lot about this since I was young I have always been a outcast simply because I was different or specifically strange. (I know how this must be starting to sound like a woe is me kind of story but that’s not what I am trying to do.) I cant feel sadness any more and I physically cant cry even at family,that I liked, funerals I feel nothing almost empty. I am rather chubby but not too much, my grades are for shit, I have been betrayed by many a friend and have all but one friend who was a life long friend named shanon (but she has been cross country for 4 maybe 5 years now and I haven’t been able to speak to her for 3) leave me. I am still stuck with my virginity should probably find some way to lose that before I die but I cant see that happening because I consider myself to be ugly. my family no longer gives a dam about me and could care less at all. I am to most of them anyway a burden especially to my mother being that we are broke and I still cant find a job. most of the people who know me hate me for some unfathomable reason. I JUST DON’T SEE THE POINT TO IT ANYMORE!
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You’re sad. Writting it down is good. It means that you still care about your pain. If you care, there’s still hope. You need to find ways to feel good about yourself, just a little bit. Take a small step first, and then see how far you can still go after that. Sometimes we gotta walk slower to be able to stand, cause life shakes us in a bad way.
Not saying you need to, but if you feel unhappy with your weightm try something to improve that. eat less junk food, work out, exercise in some manner. It often makes someone feel better, emotionally and physically. Its a shame and sad, but we know people judge by looks.
You are very young, soon your life changes and you will have a lot of opportunities if you only want them.
My advice to you, read the above again *(what I wrote). Read it until you understand and believe it.
Learn to become happy with yourself.
The rest follows.
Been there, done that. Ask me how I know.
I am 62 and don’t see a meaning to life. Your age has nothing to do with finding a meaning to life. Your situation has nothing to do with the meaning of life. There are people, kids, children whole families who live in caves, have no money, nothing but some clothes and bare essentials and they get up every morning smiling. The thing is to stop looking for a point to life! Just get up and do what you do. Doesn’t matter what you do, just being alive is the point.
This last comment is very hard to do and take to heart. It might take a life time to be able to do this and I”m still working on this myself, but don’t worry what people think of you. “They” think you’re ugly, that’s their problem. “People” hate you, that’s their problem, it has nothing to do with you. Just opinions…like assholes..everyone’s got one. LOL. Laugh a little too.