scared of taking life
You get a chance to see lot more fun on earth with lot more crazy humans
Because some times you can think intelligently
Dead beings cannot have S3x
You can watch crazy movies and serials
You can spend time on sp
scared of taking life
You get a chance to see lot more fun on earth with lot more crazy humans
Because some times you can think intelligently
Dead beings cannot have S3x
You can watch crazy movies and serials
You can spend time on sp
This sums up how I am feeling more than anything else: “how do you pick up the threads of an old life? Â How do u go on, when in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back? Â There are some things time cannot mend. Â Some hurts that go too deep that have taken hold.”-Frodo Baggins.
“I see them standing at the formal gates of their colleges,
I see my father strolling out
under the ochre sandstone arch, the
red tiles glinting like bent
plates of blood behind his head, I
see my mother with a few light books at her hip
standing at the pillar made of tiny bricks,
the wrought-iron gate still open behind her, its
sword-tips aglow in the May air,
they are about to graduate, they are about to get married,
they are kids, they are dumb, all they know is they are
innocent, they would never hurt anybody.
I want to go up to them and say Stop,
don’t do it—she’s the wrong woman,
he’s the wrong man, you are […]
When I was 11, I tried to kill myself.
When I was 13, I tried to kill myself. Four times.
Then when I was 15 my boyfriend told me I’d be better off dead. Of course, guess what I did? I tried to kill myself.
I wrote poetry depicting my mind’s perpetual spiral down into hell. I blamed myself. I said things like Well if you weren’t so darned stupid maybe you’d deserve to live.
But why would I say that? Who am I to judge?
Really that makes me selfish to think that. Everyone on this damned planet suffers every day. Every. Fucking. Day. Why should I get the cheap […]
Each time, my heart finds a more inappropriate person to love. Pretty sure one day I’ll end up in love with a cartoon character.
But what I’m telling you now makes no sense and I’m sorry. I love too many people, too much, and I’m just not a very good person. I mean, I don’t cheat physically, but I do it a lot emotionnaly.
Sorry for this confusing post.
I tried to hang myself last night. I have Schizoaffective disorder, BPD, PTSD and Anxiety and Depression. I feel like I have no one to talk to and everyone that I do talk to thinks I’m whiney. I have problems with my body and the doctors don’t see anything wrong. It’s so hard for me to walk and my insurance will be up at the end of next month. I will get a biopsy on Monday and they said that it could make my situation worse, plus they are going to stick a needle in the most sensitive area in my body. It’s so depressing […]
I wish I was a writer so I could try and put these feelings into words
but maybe I’m not because I don’t feel much of anything at all.
so many
secrets
to keep
that i cant
tell anyone
so many
secrets
i have
that i
have to
keep
and hide
from the world
so many secrets
how
can i cope?
i don’t cope
that’s the
thing
i just let it go…
Do you want someone to just talk? That won’t judge, that won’t insult, that will care? Just email me at saygoodbyetoday@gmail.com. I’ll listen and I promise I will care. Or comment down below…
I challenge you guys to tell the truth, How are you? Maybe I can help, I’d love to…
Yesterday I was told by my last close friend that her mom doesn’t want me coming over to her house anymore and I don’t know why its like she doesn’t trust me. Right now I just don’t know what to do because all my other friends have gone of to varsity and I’m just at home feeling like a piece of crap. My parents aren’t paying as much attention to what’s going on with me as they should because I’m really losing it. I want to just shoot my self in the head and just end this misery because I’m literally dying inside…I have no-one…everyone […]
 THUS SPOKE ZARATHUSTRA
THE FLIES IN THE MARKET-PLACE
Flee, my friend, into your solitude! I see you deafened with the noise of the great men, and stung all over with the stings of the little ones.
Admirably do forest and rock know how to be silent with you. Resemble again the tree which you love, the broad-branched one – silently and attentively it overhangs the sea.
Where solitude ends, there begins the market-place; and where the market-place begins, there begins also the noise of the great actors, and the buzzing of the poison-flies.
In the world even the best things are worthless without those who represent them: those showmen, the […]
I’ve been laying on a bed for hours contemplating shooting myself in the head. I had a beautiful life in which I was attending school, a beautiful wife, and teaching music my passion. Now I’ve graduated, I still kinda teach but my best friend since high school doesn’t want me anymore. I’ve done so much to hurt her and I can’t ever tell her how I feel. She wants us to be divorced now so she isn’t reminded of me. I don’t blame her but this is really baring down on me. I’ve cried for two months now about every other night and I want […]
I think the hardest problem I’m facing right now is the fact that life got better, I was doing ok, and now, back to this feeling of incredible nothingness, the void that stays in my heart even when things seem to be all right.
NO one wants me in their life, really. Â I started talking to my mom again, found out she and my dad were getting a divorce, and all of it is good because for years they have stayed together and it was making them miserable. Â I reconnected with them, and I got a room mate to help me with the bills. Â I got […]
My boyfriend broke up with me, he was cheating on me but maybe if I was a better girlfreind he wouldn’t have had too. I love him and I know it’s my fault. I’m one of those people who have to try harder then everyone else. When I study for school it takes me 8 hours to remember something that other people remember in only 2 hours. I always ruin everything I try to do including my relationships. I’m surrounded by people who have done amazing things already or have skills. I am 20 years old, havn’t joined any sports, I have no skills, I’m […]
Hi Guys,
Umm…. So I think I have decided something… I’m not going to continue with these posts… Sorry… It’s just I am running out of things… My life is now boring… I mean all it is now is wake up, starve myself, go to sleep. I mean do you really want to hear that every day?
Sooo yeahh…. If you do want me to continue just leave a comment saying so…
How am I? Physically: Meh, could be better, but it could be worse. Mentally: My mind is chaotic.
My physical state… Well you know how I injured my shoulder maybe a week ago? Yeah well last night […]
Any tips on how to remain positive? I’ve been trying but I always seem to get lost in the sadness, loss, and self hatred.
i hate this instinct to survive. Â My intellectual self wants to die, my emotional self wants to die. Â Why do I continue? Â Why? Â I know I would be better off dead. Â How wonderful that peace must be. Â I go to sleep at nite thinking please give me a good dream and don’t let me wake again
I don’t exactly know why I’m posting this. I don’t believe that I will kill myself, at least not yet. Although the thoughts are there. Constantly. I have thought about how I want to go, why I want to go, and the impact it would have on those who love me. It will be painful for them, I understand that. They will however live their lives. Without me. I’ve become a burden, a failure of a man. A failed marriage, failed fatherhood, failed life. I have no dignity left. No hope for the future left. No hope for happiness. My story is rather simple, and […]
I’m thirteen years old.  I don’t know if it’s true or not but for some reason I have the fact that my parents hate me implanted into my brain.  I can’t seem to be able to trust them no matter what.  They’ve been making fun of me for as long as I can remember.  Some days they’re always calling me names and screaming at me.  They always threaten and criticize me and make me feel like nothing.  They blow it off and say that they’re just being sarcastic and that I can’t take a joke, but I don’t laugh at any of their […]
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