I am in my mid 30s and unemployed. Over the past few years I’ve been unable to get anything besides part time work. Recently even that stopped and I moved back in with my mom, who with my stepdad is struggling to hold onto their house. I have no marketable skills and cannot seem to gain financial aid to go back to school. I think I have aspergers. I’ve only ever had one relationship my whole life and it was only for a few months. The depression and anxiety I feel every day makes it hard for me to function. I feel no enthusiasm for setting or working on goals, and don’t have the drive or belief to meet them. Every day is the same.
It feels like my life is stuck in a pattern that cannot be changed. I have been seriously contemplating suicide for months now. The thought of continuing like this is unbearable. I don’t know what to do to manage things. I have already decided on a method. I would prefer to be able to ignite a passion for life and be a productive, happy person but I don’t know how to do that.
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if you’re unemployed, i suggest you to work overseas. Asia is easy 🙂
Dear brother… You are right… It is a pattern. A self destructive cycle. In order for a new result, there must be a new step, ACTION taken… Then surely you will have a different result.
Its amazing how IRRATIONALLY we live our lives when on the surface of our consciousness we know
we are letting fear and depression plot our course.
Make a plan, a positive one, and FIGHT to accomplish it, one step at a time. You won’t feel like it and there will be opposition to your attempts, DO IT ANYWAY until the serpent is made your footstool. When you have recovered, help your brothers and sisters.