I am 36 and have come to the conclusion that me being anything or being of human worth is getting slim. So exploring suicide has its appeal. I have just had my cheap car blow up before xmas and could not run my business anymore. I have no money and never really have I have done six years jail and have felt violence numerously and have never really enjoyed hurting others growing up. I have had heaps of broken relationships cheated on left or me stuff up. Beaten bashed abused me others. Sitting back now to reflect on the chance of me being in a relationship or having a proud place in society where people see me as an achievement. Ive been alone two years. I now look at my worth. A girl would be rapped in my life. I have no work experience. No white card no qualifications. Lost my business. Got depressed. Here have some anti depressants and some welfare. My use in society? Like what friends what money what life. Get help…been pshced out counscelled and left to sink..I mean sink here talk about bad shit have life fall apart have no appeal to the opposite sex and smile……so the answer be happy with myself…hapiness checklist…welfare….tick…..tiny bit of food..tick…high bills…tick…..self…tick………..yay…silver lining…I shall send my achievements
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Hello…I am laughing…but not at you…at myself. I had very much the same mindset two years ago. I just wanted you to know that I heard you.
I have found my answers…finally…but I don’t have any idea what your’s are. I don’t know anything much about you…but I would be willing to listen for a while.
Bottom line…don’t feel bad because you are 36…I have kids in their 30’s. hahaha Yes I am a stoopid old woman…slow learner here. Just wanted you to know that even for hard cases like me…there can be hope for resolution. Just start looking at something you have never looked at before. It could be as simple as that…but I doubt it.
Do you have any diagnosis? Are you an addict? I ask for my own reasons and not to judge. I have no room to judge for the most part. Feel free to ignore any or all of this comment. I am also sorta a pushy, nosy old woman at times. 😀
Peace
Amakua