Why are you still here?

Please don’t die, please don’t do that to everyone. Please don’t make your parents bury their cold dead child. Don’t force your family to lay on your grave and scream your name until their throats are too raw to speak. Your friends and your family will never again sleep easy thinking “if only I” every night for the rest of their lives. You have a future, it is bright. Look at it now… You can get on a plane and see all the wonders of the world. Get married, have children. Don’t snuff that out because you’re temporarily sad. Life has moments that are sad but there is nothing sadder than losing you. You are loved by so many. This world becomes dark and horrible for those that love you if you are gone. If you have brothers and sisters please know that if you choose to leave they will never ever be okay again. Their lives lose meaning and they will never live another day that isn’t filled with the most horrible soul crushing grief, so much pain that it will shock them that the pain alone has not killed them. I’ve lived 27 days without my big brother, there is nothing worse… Nothing… So please I am begging you. Please choose life, please don’t do to others what he has done to me, my mom, my dad, my siblings, his friends, his children, his coworkers. The world will not be okay if you go. Please don’t die.