Good evening,
It’s fair to say I am struggling. I’m 35, been suffering with anxiety and depression for 3 years. I also have severe IBS, or in other words I get really ill a lot and the doctors don’t know why. My anxiety has lot of unwanted symptons, the worse one is feeling really cold and tight across the right side of my body. Weird huh? I can seemingly handle one or even 2 at a time, but all 3 and it’s too much.
Of course I’ve tried everything, and I mean everything. I’ll have periods when I think I’m getting to grips with it all and then it will just come crushing down on me even heavier than before.
I don’t want this pain anymore. I can’t run away from it, I can’t fix and I’m terrified its going to get worse. No one seems to understand, want out. Anyone relate?
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Hey there,
I can relate to the IBS and the anxiety that you’re dealing with. I’ve had IBS for 3 years now. It’s a real struggle, and I’d be lying if I said IBS wasn’t a cause for my depression because it’s a pain in the ass- literally. I get really bad stomach cramps that for a long time I thought I was going to have to drop out of college, it was that bad. However, over time I’ve learned to manage it, sort of at least. What really helps is this medicine called “Bentyl.” you’re gonna have to have it prescribed to you, but it helps with the cramps and settles my stomach so I won’t have to “go” so much where it becomes a disruption to my life. I know this sucks, but I only eat organic shit and don’t eat any fast food or greasy or fast food. It helps keep my bowels regular. Anyway, walking and exercise really do help, but I would look into that medication I just told you about. My anxiety can’t be treated with pills because I hate feeling like a zombie so I don’t have advice for that because I’m always an anxious mess, but what helps me is music and listening to this anxiety/IBS hypnosis cds that I have. It calms me down. I can’t relate to the body pain that you have but it sounds like you have fibromyalgia– this also causes IBS. Just look into it. I know doctor are pieces of shit sometimes because they don’t want to listen to us, but try to find one that really knows, I have a doctor that has IBS so she doesn’t judge me and believes me. I hope you’re okay, sweetheart, and try to find a medication and a lifestyle that works for you before taking your life. Please try this out before ending it because maybe something will work for you. Email me if you need anyone to chat with- Rose
Thank you so much Rose for taking the time to reply. I had not heard of fibromyalgia, I will look into it. Thanks again.
I relate to that. At times i think google is a better doctor than most doctors. I have several health problems (along with depression, anxiety and IBS is there too, but not chronic like in your case) and one of them, doctors have no idea what it is or causes it (strong pain whenever i speak/discomfort at all times, on my neck/vocal chords area), i was even told it was psychosomatic at one time, took medication for it and everything… no change (but i kinda knew it was not going to work).
thesmiths4ever has some really good points about the IBS, i really keep at bay by eathing healthy (well, at least i do most of the times), and fibromyalgia… i might read more on that because that might be the cause of my main problem now that i read some about it, lol.
I can deffo relate to you too. I’ve also struggled with severe depression and social anxiety all my life and have the additional ”gift” of a major sleep disorder too – insomnia and delayed sleep phase syndrome. It’s so bad it is impossible for me to sleep without medication or function on a day time schedule. I’ve NEVER been able to hold down a day job and have been forced to work nights the past few years. The sleep problems, together with the social anxiety, mean I permanently inhabit a dark lonely, nocturnal underworld, unable to meet new people or hold down a relationship – let lone have a job I actually like.
too_much_ rain ,
a lot of people feel like you do, first thing is realize it’s all in your head stop meds wing off them and face life, even it will get better, putting your head in the sand doesn’t work. it’s not easy but the more you deal with what terrifies the more you can deal with it, being brave is the only answer. so be brave!!