falling apart piece by piece

when people say stay strong things will get better i promise.. it never turns out to be like that in my case i get over everything. and it comes back cuz of something else happened to top that problem..
feeling like shit and nothing going right in your life. called whore by your dad and telling him to pack your things cuz she dont want you living with him anymore. then moving in with my mom everything starts getting better then BAMM you get raped by your step dad then end up getting a bf that same night and scared your gonna lose him your in stress and sad all the time and always thinking of killing your self all the time. and feel like school is another problem with drama and people not understand whats wrong with you and why you dont feel like being in the mood with jokes.