Today I started to cut. It feels like the right thing to do. I was going to do it on my arms but I decided to do it on my hip instead. The pain is bad but the cuts are good, though I feel like a mess. I keep shaking every time it think about self harm, it’s like the shakes you have when you’re cold, they’re hard to stop. My hip is badly hurting now. I’ve had racial comments made at me today. Some by my “friends'” boyfriend, but her and all her friends that were supposed to me my friends are sticking up for him so I only have myself and two year 7 girls sticking up for me. I’m getting more and more tired. I think it’s the depression.
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I understand completely what you’re going through the pain is a lot but when you look at it it feels as though you’ve done the right thing. For me it’s a release I’m not condoning it at all. I’m just saying I understand. I really do.
same as lex (not condoning but). it hurts bad when ur feeling trapped. dying for any release -anything to take away the pain. this isn’t the end mind you. you know that right? there are places (like this one) for support. people you can trust to help you out. doctors, meds, activities, aspiration…
all those things help. but *sigh* yeh. I get where your coming from.
I have been thinking about cutting recently.
As far as the so called friends defending someone who is attacking you, you may have found where your true friends from this experience (the ones that stuck up for you).
You don’t need an abundance of friends in life. Just find a few good ones that you can build long lasting bonds with. I’m not sure if that helped at all or if I’m just rambling.