The love of my life has left me for another man. I have spent my life living for her, with her and beside her. How the hell do i just continue living without her? I am alone and i am depressed. Friends, Family, they cant understand. Everyone say the same message, everything will be better in time. I say everything could be better in time. But the now is what is too painful. Theres no one i can tell my thoughts to, theres no one left to trust. When shes the only person I could ever been completely open to and trust. I want to tell her how i feel. I want to tell her how i drink and cut the pain away. That i constantly think of taking my shotgun, sitting in my car and putting a shell through my skull. But even now i cant bring myself to do that. I cant bring myself to tell her anything that would hurt her. So what the hell do i do? who the hell out there really cares enough to listen and help… Thats what i question every day, before the bottle and the razor. Who the hell really cares.. The only con of suicide would be the hurt it would place on my parents. Is that all there is too live for now? Whats the point of living such an empty life.. Â Sitting here typing out my thoughts to anyone and no one. because theres no one to turn to anymore.
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Welcome to reality!
I just had a woman leave me even though I treated her with respect. I don’t care what the idiots say; life is a bad joke for people who do the right things. Most (if not, all) women are cunts.
There’s no option but to become bitter. I don’t plan on pulling the plug soon myself, but I can understand why people choose to pull the trigger on themselves.
Im sorry your love left.
Your grieving the lost of a partner. Your mourning her and the part of you that left with her. It hurts. It really sucks.
Its ok. Be sad. Let it out. Give your self time.
I cannot say life will or will not get better. Ultimately life changes. It changes unexpectedly. But its how we handle the changes and blows life throws at us that ultimately decides what happens next. But you do have more control than you think. Its up to you.
But as for now its going to hurt. Its going to hurt alot. Its going to be roller coaster of emotions. Its going to be hard to move and live without her. You may never completely move on. Thats ok. You still loved her, you didnt leave, she did. Its unfair, its unfair your left with the broken pieces but give yourself time. The ask your self whats next. Do you stay broken or fix yourself back up?
I do hope you dont hurt yourself. I do hope you put the bottle down and put the razor aside.
Please dont give up.
We are here to help and listen and care. I wil care and will listen and be here for you.
Your in alot of pain now.
Please take care.
Dear LostWolf,
This is a life changing event, everything you have come to know has just been turned upside down. The feeling of being alone, lost and let down are understandable. The bottle and the razor are outlets for the pain. The bottle can help dull the pain temporarily and the razor can make the pain tangible. Until we find methods to address this pain please be respectful with the razor. As the razor doesn’t care, but we do
Another example of a selfish ****.
At least your “love” wasnt a whore who slept with half the town as mine did, ort at least I hope not.
Might want to get checked for STDS, thats what I just had done when I found out what a whore she was.
Fact ism you won’t get over it, no matter the cause of it all. I know I am damaged from all I went through, and will likely eventually end it all at some future point. Im just currently staying to fight her in court and take care of my 88 y.o. mom.
Once mom is gone, thats all the more reason I will be too.
Best part of my life is gone.
47, I lived a lie for 17 years.
Before that, I already had the best of this world.
I’d say hang in there, but I won’t lie. Sometimes it is better to go.
Peace, whatever your decision.
Here’s some real advice:
Reserve whatever love you have left in you for yourself. Fuck the opposite sex. Also, don’t listen to people who spend their worthless time reading self-help books written by douchebags.
“Fuck the opposite sex?”
Ambiguous choice of wording. I’d go for, “Fuck fucking.” It doesn’t paint with a too-wide brush, but gets the point across.
Thanks to all of you who have commented on this, your words have honestly been more than i could have ever gotten out of anyone i know in my personal life. And thers is obviously a much deeper understanding from all of you than there ever could be in the people in my life. Im glad to have come across this place and to have been able to tell someone how i have felt the past few weeks instead of keeping it bottled up within myself, Its been a huge help. So thank you all.