Suicide notes

that’s interesting, fox…

i was attempting to compose a comment here earlier, which i ended up discarding, which started off with “i don’t believe in perfect words.” But what i mean is that i don’t think it’s possible to say “the perfect words” which will somehow magically prevent those who would care from feeling anguish… and there’s just too much to say anyway, and no perfect way to say it, and no perfect interpretation by others who haven’t experienced your experiences, through your own existence… which is ultimately why i stopped trying to write notes… especially not “the perfect note.” Plus, i figure that perhaps some things are better left unsaid, or unknown… to others.

If you leave any writings, they’ll scrutinize the hell out of it, and in your absence, you won’t be able to guide them to the most correct interpretation, so there’s no guarantee that anything you write will help anyone cope with your departure; it could even make things “worse” for them… even though i’m sure they’ll think it’s troubling enough, should you leave not even an attempted explanation. It’s not going to be “perfect,” either way. And to spend all that time writing something that, A) won’t accomplish the intended objective, and B) keeps you steeped in darkness… seems like not just a waste, but a way to keep yourself locked in depression, instead of spending that energy on attempted resolutions to whatever problems afflict you.

Maybe you should try to write something else. ^^