I have been with Antonella for a couple of months, we laughed and exchanged opinions, she was very smart and at times i used to confess her something about myself..I asked her to be more intimate, she refused. She said no. I’m too fucked up in the head, she wouldn’t be right, i “need a special person”.
This thing haunts me. It haunts me. I can’t stay, i can’t sleep. She liked me. I swear my fucking balls she liked me. What is wrong, what is wrong, what
is
wrong with me and the people like me
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She said no. It happens. She commented while saying no. That happens, too. Life goes on. Maybe she’ll think about it… and you’ll think about it. A year ago, you wrote that you were studying medicine. I’d focus on your studies if they’re continuing. Medicine is a good career… and you’ll meet a lot of people… and many of those people will respect you for who you are.
I totally agree with distant.road.
It’s sad, and hard to deal with, but life will go on. You will go on, ’cause you are the person you know the most. You are the person that cares the most about you, and you will take time to heal from this, and feel better.
It will be ok, even if you don’t see it at the moment.
Thank you all.. thank you, thank you. Life goes on. But it’s so brutal..
I’ve started doubting that i will meet those kind of people, that will respect me for who i am. It’s always been simplier to avoid exposing my thoughts, and i used to think that people would love me anyway, even if i told them.
But it’s not like that. At all. There’s more empathy in what you two wrote to me in two lines, than in all the words that i heard from the people i live with.
It’s brutal. It’s brutal. I won’t give up, i know that for sure, but it’s brutal.
Good. I’m glad to read that. People like us exist. Just open you eyes and find them. There are good people who CAN love you for who you are. I swear to you, it exists.
Take your time to heal now, that what’s matter the most. Take care of yourself, and do things that make you feel better, for a while (music ?, Tv ? Movies ?, Books ? sports ? relaxation ?)
You are more than welcome to write here anytime.
“Just open your eyes and find them”. As beautiful as that sounds, i can’t believe it right now. I’ll take your advice, i’ll find something to do.
Im sure I’m not the only caring person on this earth. I know a bunch of others.
Good luck !