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The Sound – I Can’t Escape Myself/Hour of Need

by Taf Taf 10/21/2018

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

So many feelings
Pent up in here
Left all alone, I’m with
The one I most fear
I’m sick and I’m tired
Of reasoning
Just want to break out
Shake off this skin
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I can’t escape myself
–
All my problems
Loom larger than life
I can’t swallow
Another slice
Seems like my shadow
Mocks every stride
Can I learn to live with
What’s trapped inside?
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I can’t escape myself
–
So many feelings
Pent up in here
Left all alone, I’m with
The one I most fear
I’m sick and I’m tired
Of reasoning
Just wanna break out
Shake off this skin
–
I can’t escape myself
I can’t escape […]

10/21/2018 1 comment

Paul Durcan – Thinking About Suicide

by Taf Taf 9/1/2018

written by Taf Taf

Although I may never commit suicide

I spend parts of each day thinking about suicide –

Thinking about how I lack the courage to do it.

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I wake in the mourning with 60 per cent depression.

That’s how it remains for the whole day,

Except for the odd occasion in a year

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In the doorway or on the street I meet by chance

For a few minutes a woman passing-by

Who has the time to stop and talk for three minutes

–

Or five minutes or even sometimes seven or eight minutes,

Who rocks back on her heels in her pink, hooped skirt

With laughter, no matter what the topic.

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Depression and despair are two different states

Of mind, […]

9/1/2018 2 comments

Leonard Cohen – Dress Rehearsal Rag

by Taf Taf 8/8/2018

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

Four o’clock in the afternoon and I didn’t feel like very much

I said to myself, ”Where are you golden boy? Where is your famous golden touch?”

I thought you knew where all of the elephants lie down

I thought you were the crown prince of all the wheels in Ivory town

Just take a look at your body now, there’s nothing much to save

And a bitter voice in the mirror cries, ”Hey, prince, you need a shave”

Now if you can manage to get your trembling fingers to behave

Why don’t you try unwrapping a stainless steel razor blade?

That’s right, it’s come to this… Yes, it’s come to this…

And wasn’t […]

8/8/2018 1 comment

Empty

by mo992 4/25/2018

written by mo992

Empty is how I feel. Not empty in the sense of nothingness. I wish it was nothingness. It’s that empty that hurts. Like a flesh eating worm, it hurts.
It’s hard to put in words this feeling of mine.
I struggle to comprehend many feeling this way.
This terrible feeling goes beyond my gut. It crawls through my every being, like maggots on an open wound.
For over 12 years I have known this feeling. Sometimes this feeling reseeds into the background. Loo it is always there. Feeding, growing, waiting.
It waits for me to see hope, the swiftly drags me down again.
It knows […]

4/25/2018 1 comment

TRIGGER WARNINGTeen live streams suicide while friends watch

by rayonhousefly 3/15/2018

written by rayonhousefly

TRIGGER WARNING

Well this happened today, or yesterday depending on your timezone. Im not going to link in the effort not to trigger anyone, but if you are so inclined use google.

I watched the whole video, his friend managed to record most of it. The kids mom walks in just minutes after her son shot himself in the face with a shotgun.

The reason i bring this up is because he frequented an image board i also did, and he specifically says goodbye to the people there before doing it. The reason is, that after watching it, something clicked inside me. And that is that no matter […]

3/15/2018 1 comment

Sorry Friends

by OneSadLife 5/26/2016

written by OneSadLife

My wish is this one day I have it all ended. Where Do I began? Im 16, Just faking everything. I attempted Sucicde countless times from anything from Suffocation, Overdose, Cutting, Strangling and have tried hanging. All of them have failed and caused pain for me. I have a girlfriend I hate my life and my family. I wish I could run away and not be affected by anything. I got into trouble at school for Depression thoughts, Self-Harm. I was sent to the hospital twice for a week. Put me on meds and never really helped. The Hospitial is out and I will run […]

5/26/2016 1 comment

Live fast, die young, and leave a good lookin corpse.

by noneedforaname 4/26/2016

written by noneedforaname

Live fast, die young, and leave a good lookin corpse. That’s the way we always lived our lives growing up, some of us succeeded, some of us ( like myself ) didn’t. Oh I lived fast, ( still am ) but I didn’t die young, and let’s face it, the GOOD lookin corpse things went right out the window years ago. I grew up and still live in Detroit. Growing up we didn’t have anything but that didn’t matter cause we really didn’t need anything, hell there was no such thing as cable, or video games, we had hot wheels, the […]

4/26/2016 7 comments

Poetry is my outlet currently

by Skior 3/17/2016

written by Skior

I’ve started writing poetry about how i feel from day to day, I would like it if i could get some advice on what i wrote

Thanks

Beauty,
It is so lovely
The deeper we sink into depression
It sooner blossoms in our fears and our desperation
It tears our hearts and makes them bleed
But it is a new start, a new beginning
No matter how deep the pain flows
In the deepest veins it courses
It travels, It spreads
Yet still, is the light in our dark and gloomy life
Every life is sad and lonely
the people who learn to accept it live happier

3/17/2016 2 comments

Live and learn, right?

by Bri 3/8/2016

written by Bri

I’m really bad at taking emotional pain, not that people think about that when they give me a reason to be emotionally hurt. It’s really funny honestly, how all of it plays out. I had let a friend of mine close, like really close… We have only really been together a couple weeks, but I’ve had the crush on him and he on me for the LONGEST time… So, ask me, what did I receive somewhere between Psychology 1101 and Accounting 1100 tonight? The “I think we rushed it, we should just be friends” message!

It shouldn’t hurt this bad, but fuck y’know? He promised me, […]

3/8/2016 3 comments

Life

by Drowning 2/24/2016

written by Drowning

Do we Live to work or work to live ??

2/24/2016 7 comments

Assisted suicide

by NiDDA 1/21/2016

written by NiDDA

I had a conversation today that inspired this post.

Imagine the sick people who need organs to survive, they WANT to survive, they WANT to LIVE. If they had a method, I mean doctors, to kill patients without damaging the needed body parts or organs, they could give them to the sick, they could give them their desired LIFE. Instead of this they let people die from hanging, ODing etc. MISERABLY and MEANINGLESSLY. I know that there are certain states of mind when some can’t tell the difference between reality and their own imagination, but then leave those out of this chance. There are a shitload […]

1/21/2016 10 comments

I think I am done here for awhile

by v.c.333 9/25/2015

written by v.c.333

Thank you all so much. Even if we never commented towards each other, I have read all. I will make it. I have made it 30 years of depressed, I can make it a little longer for my family. I am chronically ill and will probably only make it another 20-30 years. I don’t want to come repeat life because I didn’t learn my lessons the first time. Or end up in some purgatory with guides and counselors. (i have been reading NDEs). Even if I just wink out, it is not fair to my daughter, she did not ask to be here either (as […]

9/25/2015 4 comments

im ready for the grey

by sadsadist 8/20/2015

written by sadsadist

Once more into the fray

Into the last good fight I will ever know

Live and die on this day

8/20/2015 0 comment

Too Afraid to Die Too Depressed to Live

by hiitsme0819 8/16/2015

written by hiitsme0819

What a tangled web stuck in a loop of hating myself for not having a life and not having a life because im to depressed and socially awkward to even try

8/16/2015 1 comment

To T, my love.

by anthropophobia 5/3/2015

written by anthropophobia

You complete me, T

I want to fill your ass with semen in it’s entire T.

Yes you inspire me, perhaps it’s your sensuali T.

Yes, you will see, it’s your oppourtuni T,

I need to embrace thee. There is no shame in modes T,

I need to say what is true to me. You are the pinnacle of sexuali T.

I will be your tree, anchored with roots of stabili T.

Whether you are he or she, I will stay by you for eterni T.

I love you to the the 3rd degree, and all of your ecentrici T

So come let’s be free from the restraints of socie T

Live with me in […]

5/3/2015 8 comments

Jumper Regrets…

by BeteBlonde 3/29/2015

written by BeteBlonde

I had a strange and morbid fascination the other night concerning a documentary I watched a few years ago…called “The Bridge” and it chronicles suicides from the Golden Gate Bridge. It’s hard to watch; haunting; very sad. What really spoke to me was the story of Kevin Hines, who actually survived the jump. Once he leaped, he was suddenly struck with the realization that he wanted to LIVE and changed his mind mid-air. And that’s what really haunts me…what if once you pull the trigger, or hoist the rope or leap off…what if in that very moment you decide that you don’t want to die […]

3/29/2015 10 comments

Some day I will be able to..

by falling_soup 2/17/2015

written by falling_soup

Some day I will be able to:

Be free
Live on my own
Be who I want to be
Live far away from my mom
Be happy?

Let’s be real, I will never be happy. I can never be free because I am trapped to my mentally ill mother. I am all alone. My stomach is in knots and I can’t seem to stop the anxiety and the emotions that come with the thought of killing myself. I will never be able to “stomach” the situation that for the last 16 years I have been put through. My life is never going to change. I am trying to do the best […]

2/17/2015 5 comments

100 Reasons to Live

by Ryder 2/14/2015

written by Ryder

And here are 100 reasons to keep going.
A few might be similar to each other, but nothing’s perfect.

You should live:
1. Because you care about the world.
2. There’s a lot to live for.
3. You have dreams to fulfill.
4. Life eventually gets better.
5. You’re afraid of death.
6. Because you can flip your life around.
7. Because people need you to live.
8. Because someone out there loves you.
9. For religion.
10. To help someone worse off than you.
11. To find the perfect job or career.
12. To fall in love.
13. Because there’s a reason we’re on this […]

2/14/2015 8 comments

I’m Too Depressed to Live.

by I Love You 1/28/2015

written by I Love You

Yep. That’s about it.

I’ve gone through all four major stages of depression at least twice–some even three times.

I’ve been diagnosed with several types of severe depression.

And I’m done.

I’m just done.

Night.

1/28/2015 0 comment

Survival instincts

by hopeisafourletterword 12/14/2014

written by hopeisafourletterword

Picture this: Someone has just started contemplating suicide, and they came up with a foolproof way out of this world. As they were getting lost in their own head, imagining their peaceful death, someone they love dearly pops into the picture, and all of a sudden they start shouting their name, crying out for help, but it’s too late. Their death is inevitable, leaving that loved one with nothing else to do but watch them fade away and cry. The person snaps back to reality and starts questioning everything, leading them to live another day… and another… and another…

Wherever our built-in survival instincts are stored in our […]

12/14/2014 3 comments

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