I was told my self deliverance would be a most selfish act. Â I was told I should think of my family and the loss they would feel.
I am,therefore , sorry that I must deprive my family of whatever delight they might have felt by watching me die a slow painful death. Do they really hate me so much that I must suffer daily to provide them with a pleasure so great that it exceeds the agony I must endure.
Why is their enjoyment in my suffering of more value than the one right I have left (the right to end my pain).
So I ask “Am i really selfish?”
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I understand your situation, im going through the same scenario. I don’t have any words of encouragement or advice because if I had any I wouldn’t be in the state that I am. JUst know that I understand your pain & that you are not aline
It’s really a trade off. You cannot blame your family for wanting you around and exhausting all efforts to ease your pain. But the facts are we don’t live in a perfect world where everyone wants to hang on. Whatever happens is written into the story of life. The pain will exist, in one form or another, with or without you.
Is it selfish? That’s a matter of opinion. There isn’t too many things done throughout the day that aren’t selfish. Once you get to the point of not caring if it’s selfish, you aren’t far away from taking the plunge.
Simply no.
Well if I’m right you’re asking if you’re selfish for wanting to commit suicide?
Could you not argue and say that they are the selfish ones for essentially forcing you to endure whatever agony it is that you’re going through simply so that they don’t feel sad? Like Bipolar American said, it really is a matter of opinion. However, if you are selfish for wanting to kill yourself, then they too are selfish for wanting to stop you.
~A Cannibal Baby