Someone, Anyone

Are you looking for a reason to live? Or do you have the intelligence to recognize those on your own? Such as, “people will miss you” and “you are making a selfish choice”. It still amazes me that anybody with a half bit of knowledge would use this on ill people (mentally or physically). I am more than happy to listen to you. I think that is what suicide prevention is all about. Not that “people really love you chit”. More like…..” “hey….don’t you tell me why, when, where. It’s OKAY to talk about it. We should we allowed that when we are on so much pain. Can you answer me this…..would you prefer to tAlk aboutall the reasons why, or would you prefer to listen to all their boring scripted reasons why you shouldn’t? They had been doing it for years. They are sociopaths. Most people doNt and could never imagine what they have done. But my husband. Children and parents (soon to be grandparents) know all about what they have done. Only those closets to you can inflict true pain. Boyfriends, husands, family, FRIENDS. My family tried to kill me 3 times. My father tried to strangle me to death with a jump rope…..(luckily my mom beat him off……I love that women and she says she is going when I go). My grandfather jumped me on a bed and tried to squeeze the life from my neck while my grandma watched. Later, at age 16, my brother, who is 6 years older, came home and to,d me of his plan to murder me and my parents in our sleep. (Sorry but at that point, you kinda die inside. Silly fu&c&in for being dead. And wanting to die. But the saga goes on. Sometimes I feel like standing up for myself. It never ends well. They never say what they did to cause reactions…..all all most people need is someone saying “she’s a b$tch….and she did this”. And they are soooooooo stupid……..they follow along! They never ask WHY? WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU? I’m almost 40, and by now you think people would mature. They would understand and say “if I know that so and so is willing to do this on purpose,why should I respect them”. My best friend had been trying m
To hurt me since she met me. My brother hates me and wants me dead. Apparently because Ives cried 6-7 or 7 times from his torment to. My friend who instigated me for years and people warned about and said she was that kind of a person. I didn’t believe them. So it’s all. Y fault. My mother begged me not to talk to her….as did my husband. Oh well. My
Parents know what she and her family and friends did. They know what my sil and brother did. I’m writing a little book before I go.