To anyone who is attempting suicide tonight, I wish you success in your attempt. Simple as that. I know we would all like to think that we can offer positive encouragement to fellow sufferers… maybe because it’s what we desperately wish we could find ourselves… but I know in my case that is just hypocrisy.
I wish for you what I wish for myself, that tonight your pain ends. No bs about finding a cure in life, no bs about finding a better solution or a way to deal with the pain. No, I hope you reach the true end of your pain which can only come when we cease to exist.
Best of luck. In your last few minutes remember that you’re not alone, and after that… well it doesn’t really matter does it
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You are very honest and I respect that. I can’t say that I wouldn’t say the same many days and nights.
One piece of advice for someone who survives trying to kill themselves, like I did years ago, is to get your own space–land, home, somewhere you feel comfortable. Find pets you can love. They will not betray you. They will love you back. Build your own life. It takes time. Don’t depend on someone else to fill your void. Whether you believe in God or religion doesn’t matter. I don’t. But I do believe in vibes and spirit, the intangible parts of life. Finding a way to fill that void will help.
I wish you all less pain.
Love,
Vedura
Why pets? Relating to animals and nature can bring you back to your natural self, a self destroyed by the expectations of society and the cruelness of humans around you.
You spoke of ceasing to exist. I believe I don’t know that if I die I will cease to exist. Ya sure, this body ceases, but do I? Will I be stuck in a Ground Hog Day type existence going from death to life to death to life repeating the same mistakes over and over. I don’t know for a fact that when I die, I cease. This one question in my head keeps me going here, believe it or not. Why kill myself and get out of all the bullshit then find myself right back in the crapper? Hmm… Jump’n Jehosaphat…who knows?
I hear you, Randall. No one knows what, if anything, happens after death. Religion tries to scare you, keep you here. I do know that I don’t believe in heaven or hell. You can find both right here on Earth.