i feel like i cant become anyting like there is no hope for me no future
it seems like im a dissapointment to everyone
why wont i be a good person and take my own life it feels like thats the way to go then i cant dissapoint anyone then i cant hurt anyone
the pain of my loss will fade, the pain if i will stay will be worse
the only reason im still here is for her the one person in my live, but she is 4000 miles away
the power of a single person kept me alive while the poeple near me dont seem to care
how can you go on if you know it will only get worse, you know you will only cuase more pain
they thing i truly want is to be forgotten and to be gone no trace that i ever excisted that my gf never knew me so i could go in peace
the only thing i will do is go on and suck up the pain untill i can finaly dissapear
wouldnt that be perfect, yust nothing around you nothing at all
it is a dream for me, the only thing left to do is make her let me go and let my dream come true
nothing, wouldnt it be perfect?
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Hi maui… If you don’t mind my asking, how old are you? Regardless of your age, there are people of all ages here struggling much like you are. You mentioned “sucking up” the pain. If it’s not too personal, what is causing the pain?
im 18 years old and the pain in mental
cause of the pain is coused by several things:
i always tried my best to make everyone happy ended up failing towards everyone
the nonstop feeling of sadness
all the responsibilltys i cant handel
the unbearable missing of my gf
and now nothing seems intresting, nor do i really care for anything besides my gf
i can make a long list but you can see here that its caused by many things
Hi maui, I think in all your efforts to make everyone else happy you might have neglected the happiness of the most important person.. you!
We all need a break from responsibilities and trying to make everyone else happy from time to time. And that’s ok.
Like gillian wrote, there is nothing wrong with taking some time to catch your breath. It would probably help you quite a bit. If you’re not happy, it eventually takes a big toll on you. Don’t sacrifice yourself… Remember to take care of you.