Hey names jane 12
my life was good up to age 7. My got ill with dementia. Her side doesnt help much. My dad and his family took care of us. My mum has been taken in and out of hospital for the past 4 years. It has taken alot out of all of us. Me and my sisters were taken in to care before my dad got full custody of us. (He and my mum seperated) my dad is stressed all the time. My mum doesn’t want to take her medicine. Â She always talks about God god god god. He hasnt done anything. Â My life has been so bad I Â the past 5 years. I tryy I really do. I try to stay strong but my prayers are falling on deaf ears. Don’t tell me to stay strong. I envy all the ppl whose mums can do things for them. My mum cant even guide me through adolesence. Do you know how that feels? My mum cant go to parent teacher nights or take me shopping. I have to hold her hand in shops while people stare like she’s some mad woman. I lookedd at my mums medicine recently and searched what they were 4. They were to stop HIV. That night I tried to overdose on that medicine and die. I have no intrest I Â life whatsoever because I don’t know how it feels to have a mum now. If I die then I hope some 1 sees this.
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My mother will always be that one woman in my life and I acknowledge that she was horrible at parenting and spent too much time huffing gas and paint, but she is my mother and I love her dearly…but she did not get me where I am today. I did so under my own steam, using her as a reference as to what I did NOT want to become. In doing so, I became my own man and did everything that she denied herself in her own life; a successful career, a healthy relationship and a somewhat optimistic outlook on the future. I don’t know what’s it like to truly have a mother either, but we can do an equally good job of taking care of ourselves anyway. Hell, you’re young and who’s not to say that in years to come you’ll be a mother too, and give your child the love and support you were not afforded in your childhood?
Wherever you are, I wish you the very best, Lady Jane.
Thank you x it means a lot to me xx
I saw it :p
I don’t believe in religion (I don’t know how you could, after what happened to your mom, but whatever).
The only reason I’m not dead is because I didn’t have the guts to kill myself…
Thats the only reason you’re not dead as well: did you know what ODing on those pills would do? you wouldn’t know anyways even if you DID look it up…
Ill save you the trouble, most pill-ODs, worst case scenario: you end up braindead like your mum, and your dad now has two zombies to pay for.
Of course, you wouldnt care if you were braindead after you were braindead, you wouldnt GET to care, you’d be braindead, but i bet you care right now, reading this, because some things are worse than death.
The sooner you accept you can’t actually kill yourself, the sooner you’ll get over it (if you can though, great!…but if you’re on this site im sure that you’re tripping, like everyone else)
So yeah, my advice? If you can call it that: keep trying to kill yourself until you do, or admit you cant and begin living a normal life, but whatever you do, dont try killing yourself with unreliable methods like stupid pills, unless you wanna end up like your mom, or like a vegetable, or worse…
Dont call my mum braindead
Well I’m sure she wasn’t; and it wasn’t meant as an offense.
But people essentially go crazy when diseases like that affect them;
I certainly wouldn’t want to stick around if I had an immunodeficiency virus…
My parents both were unfit to care for me and abusive, religious fundamentalist, completely mentally unfit. Completely unable to raise children. I had to raise my self.