He is destroying me. He doesn’t even care that he is killing me inside. I feel so alone and I’m completely lost. My friends and family act like I shouldn’t care and that I shouldn’t be upset. I didn’t want us to end..especially not because of my stupid parents. I’ve been miserable for the last 2 months..He made me happy. I felt that he was my escape from reality. I could be myself around him and he didn’t judge me. He told me he loved me and wanted me. I fell into the abyss. I am now slowly fading away. I want to die. I feel so empty without him in my life. He ignores me. He doesn’t even know how emotionally and physically sick all of this is making me feel. He tells me he loves me, but he says he can’t handle my mood swings. I hate myself for being who I am now. No wonder he doesn’t want me anymore. I am pathetic. My friends tell me that he is pathetic and selfish. He left me and tried to go after my best friend. He told me he hated me and that he loved her…Then a month later said he wanted me back and that he never really got over me or loved her. I fell into his trap and now here I am again feeling lost and hopeless. What should I do?
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What do you think you should do?
I don’t know..I’m afraid of being alone. I want to die, but I know that part of me wants to live. I feel like I do nothing right and that I won’t survive being hurt again. I guess I could just let him go.., but the thought of not being with him hurts me.
You know your answer, and yes it may hurt to let him go but does it not hurt more to keep him around and always be reminded of his betrayal?
More or less, and I will be blunt, but this relationship is not healthy and more than likely fail in the future and bring about more pain and disappointment in the future. You do not need this. You do not need his relationship driving you to contemplate hurting and ultimately killing yourself.
It is unfair.
Your good to have to step back and truly observe your relationship and where it will head in unbiased eyes. There will be alot of pain and sorrow to come but many lessons and maturity to attain from it. You can and will overcome and blossom into a strong, independent and fierce individual.
Plus, a guy who needs to manipulate and play these childish tactics is someone you might want to think twice about being with.
Dont fall into his trap.
You are better than him.
Thank you so much for that. You have helped more than you think. It upsets me, but he..he really hurt me and I don’t want that to happen again. You are amazing and I feel like I can do this now.