But it sucks seeing my ex bf marrying some girl he managed to replace me with so quickly. I mean come on dude you’re 19 and you’re ready to spend the rest of your life with her? It makes me lol and want to cry at the same time.
I doubt any man is gonna want a woman with scars all over her body though =.=
Any of you feel the same way? I want someone in my life to help me along my goal to getting my survivor’s mentality back.
But I now also have a problem with the whole love life thing because of good old past abuse…..if you know what I mean. Though I can’t say it’s was full on abuse because I really didn’t stop it. Just went with it like a fucking fuck headed stupid idiot I am.
Lol I missed this blog. Bitching to strangers is kind of relieving.
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The awesome woman who is now my wife married me despite my past (and present) and all my scars. We are twice your age now, and I’m telling you that the opposite of doubt is hope. Existence has plenty for you to experience, but mostly to enjoy. Emphasize and insist on the ‘joy’.
That’s awesome. I’m glad you found your soulmate.
I’m still trying to grasp hope and joy. It’s been tough…but I’m still here for now I guess lol.
Hey there,
Sadly you and I both have had not so grat of lives. I’m not the most romantic myself, but do feel your pain.
I know what it is like for someone to just leave after finding someone else, it’s one of the worst feelings out there.
Email me if needed.
brl.cents@gmail.com
If it helps i got to see my ex pull something similar on me, she left me saying she didn’t want to know anything about love for a long time. Less than a year later… practicly ready to marry some guy she has met for even less time than it took us to start out relationship. At first i even thought it was someone she knew before we were together, but nope. Just comes to show how inconsecuent people is, and how easy it is for some people to replace the ones they claimed to love madly. I still keep trying to believe that not people are the same tho.
Same. I just keep hoping that one day that one person will come along and stay by my side (without clinging like a child like my ex did)
“Clinging like a child like my ex did”
Some people actually like being loved unconditionally. You may say unconditional love and the total dependency on and from your partner is naive “like a child”, but afaik other concepts of love rarely last long.
No this guy would get depressed if I didn’t text him back for like an hour. He’d get all upset when I would get my haircut because he would miss it being long. No matter what I did he always felt ignored. He’d be offended by my introvertedness and natural wanting to be left alone at times for personal space. It was childish.
The clinging part got my attention. I don’t know about this and maybe it’s just my experience, but my worst dating experiences have been with clingy people. Not in the sense of them annoying me or anything, but those are the ones that dumped me in the most heartless, cowardly, and screwed up ways than i can remember. Maybe it’s just coincidence but i’m a bit more cautious about clingy people now because of that.
@buscetti: I found that part about the haircut funny. I mentioned to my ex (which i considered clingy) that i liked long hair and she didn’t cut it for most of our relationship (4 years). She’d usually say she wanted to cut it and i’d reply that it was fine since i’d like it anyway, but never did it because “you told me you like long hair”. When she dumped me she cut it and said “i finally can cut my hair” as if i was forcing her to keep it that way, lol.
Lol yeah my ex seems to have found another mother-like figure in his “fiancé”. I’m all for supporting each other emotionally in a relationship, but if you want to be babied like I’m your mother every time you have a problem or don’t like something, then I’m not taking it.
Granted I’ve always been one to internalize my problems instead of complain about them. And I know I wasn’t always the best partner due to my own issues. It just wasn’t meant to be, and I guess that’s alright.
I covered my scars with tattoos, worked for me.
I’ve occasionally thought about getting a tattoo. Then again I tattooed myself with scars lol.
Maybe I should get into scarification….lol…