So I’ve come to the conclusion that it does not get better. The mental disorders don’t go away, I won’t get any less socially awkward, & I will not become any less pathetic. I’ve sought help & It lead to my family thinking I’m crazy to the point where none of them want anything to do with me. I tried to just get away, but I end up with more problems then I started with. Always naturally hated by everyone I’ve met. First I thought it was a test. Then when I lost faith I thought it was a punishment, but now I know there is no reason behind it all it’s just my life.
Tomorrow will be my 3rd & finale suicide attempt.
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Some days are bearable. Don’t just give up on us like that already. There are some pretty incredible stories on here sp… What’s yours, there’s gotta be more to it…?
Yes, what jj said. I, for one, definitely want to hear more. Tell us your story. There is plenty of time. It doesn’t have to be tomorrow, regardless of what you choose. People here care, and believe it or not, many understand and feel very similar pains. What has brought you here? To this site, to this moment, to this painful choice once again? We will listen.
” First I thought it was a test.
Then when I lost faith I thought it
was a punishment, but now I know
there is no reason behind it all it’s
just my life.”
So you’re dead now?
I hope you’re still here, because I relate to that so much..I have something else pushing me for suicide though and it doesn’t seem that you have it so please listen when I say the things you speak of can be overcome. There is someone out there that might fall in love with you and accept you and your mental disorders. I found someone who accepts all of mine when I thought no one could and no one else does. You may even find someone with the same disorders so they may understand and not judge you by the disorder but love you for you.
🙁