Two Worlds Of Hate

At school I could always be myself
And I could do that without being hated
Without being critiqued
And just accepted into the group of my friends
Unlike my world at my house
At my house I got criticized
I got yelled at for the slightest mistakes
I got hit even though I did nothing wrong
Maybe living here is why they hit me
Anyway I had a world where I could just be me
And not get hated, or hit, or criticized
I wouldn’t have to worry about making mistakes
Because my friends would always forgive me
But now that has drastically changed
One day I don’t know what went terribly wrong
But something went wrong
And now my friends hate me
They glare at me
Yeah they’ll pretend to be my friends
But only for little snippets in time
Then they’ll glare at me and I can feel the glares
I can hear the whispers as they tell each other
All of their opinions about me
None of the opinions are nice just rude and mean
They’ll mock me, imitate me, and just plain offend me
I once had a world of kindness and acceptance
And one world of hate and rejection
All of my school friends practically don’t like me
And neither does any of my family
I only have two friends in this moment of time
And both of them want me to move on and live
But both of them could survive and live without me
So why should I live when I don’t get any love
And all I really get is just hate?
I don’t have a purpose anymore
I did have one and that was to try to be happy
And to keep the group of friends that I had
But now I don’t have them any more
My purpose went away and I don’t think it’ll be coming back
So why should I stay if I don’t have a purpose?
Well I don’t think I’ll be staying for any longer
I think I’ll be going on my way soon
I don’t have an exact date, but I do have a plan.
And that’s all I need right now is a plan
And one other thing to complete this
Is just the exact and right moment
Because why live on this planet earth
When all I have
Is two worlds of hate?