Done

I just feel so done lately, done with everything and everyone.I get in my car to drive somewhere and I just want to take my hands off the wheel. The thought of growing up absolutely terrifies me. I feel so depressed, and I want to go to the doctor, really I do but she told my parents last time and I would literally quit if they found out. I’m just such a private person, I don’t like big groups or other people. I absolutely detest with a fiery passion being told what to do or being mocked for being “grumpy”. I’m overweight, so overweight and the people I hang out with are the opposite, they’re pretty and fun and outgoing and I am too, sometimes. I don’t know if I’m bipolar or depressed or maybe I’m neither and really just can’t anymore, they say a dog knows when it’s their time to go and sometimes I think I do too.