first time on here

OK so I was just and average 12 year old until I entered sixth grade and I had a crush on this boy Jonathon*. He knew I liked him so he started calling me ugly, fat,ect.  He also told me to go cut myself and die, so I did what he wanted I watched the blood go down my arm as I got weaker and weaker I stopped for my mom cause she threatened to put me in a mental  hospital,  so I stated to cut in nonnoticable places like legs ankles thighs.  So moving on to the beginning of this year.  I’m still twelve.  January 21st I had a friends spend the night we slept in the room over from my bedroom. I work up to screaming and hollering from my brother. I went to see what was wrong, my mom was laying on the couch not breathing, he didn’t know what to do so I had to act like the 19 year old an I had him call 911, she was gone.