Seems like a messy habit…as bad as my life has gotten, I’ve never thought of self-harm, aside from wanting to kick myself in the head for making some stupid choices…and suicide of course.
But actually cutting, bleeding, scarring…no offense, it’s an awful thing to do to your own beautiful skin. Not to mention the ugliness of it as you wait for it to re-heal.
My new hairdresser lives a few doors away. His name’s Francesco but we call him Frank Butcher because he butchers peoples hair. If you need to cut I can recommend him because he’ll probably cut your ears.
So you see it as a form of self-punishment for your mistakes? Isn’t feeling rotten on the inside punishment enough? I know I’m trying to reason with something that may be a compulsion for you but at least you could think of trying to channel your emotions into something less harmful, until you can resolve the problem.
I’m also not one to lecture others because I think we’re all affected by forces/feelings greater than ourselves…for instance, I didn’t have a good experience at work yesterday and had a mild anxiety attack and called in sick today. I have no control over it, even though I wanted to ‘get over it’ and go into work this morning…but because I’m upset I can’t control it. I know I’ll be fine by tomorrow though.
I’ve never tried to cut. I hear that it releases endorphins and makes you feel euphoric. I’m still not gonna try it lol. I hate pain that’s why I love my painkillers (morphine, hydrocodone, oxycodone, methadone) gives you that warm feeling. Too bad my tolerance has built up to the point where what I take everyday would kill most people but I don’t feel much at all. I guess if the drugs still worked like they should I wouldn’t be depressed as much. Funny the things we will do to try and calm ourselves. I myself can barely conjure up enough energy to take a shower and go to work anymore and it gets worse everyday
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Seems like a messy habit…as bad as my life has gotten, I’ve never thought of self-harm, aside from wanting to kick myself in the head for making some stupid choices…and suicide of course.
But actually cutting, bleeding, scarring…no offense, it’s an awful thing to do to your own beautiful skin. Not to mention the ugliness of it as you wait for it to re-heal.
As addictive as cutting may be, try to think clearly and realize it won’t . Help nor change anything at all. Be strong 🙂
It’s really one of the only things that calms me down sometimes. That, and sometimes I just feel like I deserve it.
And I don’t care much about the scars. I do it on my stomach and upper thighs so no one will see.
My new hairdresser lives a few doors away. His name’s Francesco but we call him Frank Butcher because he butchers peoples hair. If you need to cut I can recommend him because he’ll probably cut your ears.
@whitneyirene
So you see it as a form of self-punishment for your mistakes? Isn’t feeling rotten on the inside punishment enough? I know I’m trying to reason with something that may be a compulsion for you but at least you could think of trying to channel your emotions into something less harmful, until you can resolve the problem.
I’m also not one to lecture others because I think we’re all affected by forces/feelings greater than ourselves…for instance, I didn’t have a good experience at work yesterday and had a mild anxiety attack and called in sick today. I have no control over it, even though I wanted to ‘get over it’ and go into work this morning…but because I’m upset I can’t control it. I know I’ll be fine by tomorrow though.
I’ve never tried to cut. I hear that it releases endorphins and makes you feel euphoric. I’m still not gonna try it lol. I hate pain that’s why I love my painkillers (morphine, hydrocodone, oxycodone, methadone) gives you that warm feeling. Too bad my tolerance has built up to the point where what I take everyday would kill most people but I don’t feel much at all. I guess if the drugs still worked like they should I wouldn’t be depressed as much. Funny the things we will do to try and calm ourselves. I myself can barely conjure up enough energy to take a shower and go to work anymore and it gets worse everyday