Hello everyone
Im Shianna and I’ve been bullied since I was 10
It started in 4th grade
At the beginning I had lots of friends I was always to popular girl I would always bring in snacks for everyone and I loved school.
Well somewhere in 4th grade I started gaining crazy weight I weighed 178
Remember a 10 year old weighing that is really dangerous so my doctor gave me pills and more pills. But they didn’t help
At all. 4Th grade was over I was in 5th now and III t was around my 11th birthday
When I walked pass a group of boys and they said Hey look Its a whale 😞 I mean was I really that fat did I really look like a whale
At that point they Did it everytime they saw me and I started to believe them so what did I do I started starving myself I liked it I thought I looked better… right?
so Its my birthday
And I’M going home all happy
And I walk upstairs and my brother says happy birthday whore
In 5th grade I was sending NUDES and stuff and dating everyone
Terrible right?
Ontop of being bullied at school I walk home and my brother says happy birthday whore isn’t that just amazing
At that second I ran to my room locked my door and broke down in tears I couldn’t take it anymore it hurt being bullied but I was like naaa ima suck it up
So then came 6th grade I went to a new school new friends new everything right no
The first few weeks where amazing until I messed with the wrong person
I Dont remember what I said all I remember is me waking up in the hospital friends say I got knocked out Which I believe
Anyways bullying got really really bad so came 7th
OMG SO MUCH DRAMA
SO I DATED THIS GUY FOR 8 MONTHS CHEATED TWICE BUT HE FORGAVE ME THEN HE DATED MY BEST FRIEND THEN DATED ME OMG SO I WAS GETTING ALL THE NEGATIVE FEED BACK I WAS THE WHORE THE SLUT THE HOE EVERYTHING I WAS 😞😓 MY FUCKING BROTHER UGHHH HE STILL CALLS ME A WHORE AND A SLUT BUT I’M NOT OK IM A NICE PERSON PEOPLE JUDGE ME BEFORE THEY GET TO KNOW ME THEY
I’VE LOST ALOT OF FRIENDS I HAVE NOBODY NOW
I LOST MY FRIENDS
LOST MY FAITH IN MYSELF
SELF RESPECT
LOVE EVERYTHING WAS GONE Y
BECAUSE IMA HOE IMA BELIEVE WHAT PEOPLE SAY
BECAUSE I GUESS ITS TRUE EVERYONE’S SAYING IT
IMA WORTHLESS WHORE
IM STILL EVER WEIGHT I’M 154 THAT’S HORRIBLE I’M FAT I’M A TERRIBLE PERSON I HAVE CUTS ALL OVER MY BODY WHO WOULD WANT ME HMM NOBODY I’M NOTHING 😔😢
I AM
I’M A CHILD OF GOD
A BEAUTIFUL CREATION
BORN TO MAKE MISTAKES
BORN TO FAIL
BORN TO BE IMPERFECT
Y BECAUSE IF GOD CAN TAKE BEING BEAT WITH WHIPS AND HUNG ON A CROSS TO DIE FOR US FOR OUR WRONG DOING MANN WE CAN DO THIS TOGHTER I’VE WANTED TO GIVE UP I’VE WANTED TO DIE I STILL WANNA DIE BUT Y SHIANNA OVER SMALL LITTLE THINGS 😔
I TAKE MY TIME AND THINK HOLD UP I WANNA DOES BECAUSE I GET CALLED NAMES BECAUSE I’M NOT PERFECT BECAUSE I’M FAT BUT LOOK AT EVERYONE NOBODY IS PERFECT BECAUSE YOUR PERFECT IN YOUR OWN WAYS
SO BEFORE U PICK UP THAT’ BLADE OR THAT KNIFE OR ROPE OR THOSE PILLS REMEMBER GOD LOVES U NO MATTER HOW BAD U MESS UP NO MATTER WHAT U WEAR OR WHAT U LOOK LIKE YOUR AN AMAZING WORK OF ART AND DON’T LET PEOPLE TELL U GUYS LESS
4 comments
Really, boys started calling me ugly at 5th grade and I just accepted it. I know I’m not pretty, but what’s wrong with it? I think they tried to bully me, but I was all on my own already, couldn’t let anyone touch my feelings.
I wish everyone could stop listening to others so much and started building their own personalities within themselves. I wish you can stop listening to others. Try to be yourself, to find yourself.
Sing it loud and proud sister Shiana
Good story. Thanks for sharing. If I’m a work of art I must be a Jackson Pollock drip and drizzle or maybe Pizza Art.
kids can b cruel in what they say and don’t realize how hurtful it can be to the victims.
some kids even learn mean language from their parents at home and don’t know better.
but I would say if you have suddenly have this really bad wrap at that one school then consider moving to another school and start fresh