I’m quite isolated from other people my age; I’m shy and feel uncomfortable around other people quite easily. I never go out and do things with friends. I have casual friends who i talk to at school, I have no real “good” friends who i regularly see out of school.
I used to get depressed quite a lot, mostly last year though. I haven’t really felt depressed in two almost two months now, though suicidal thoughts are a constant threat.
I am almost finished school, and I catch up with friends most days. But once I get home or they leave, I just feel empty. Not really depressed, just, like nothingness…blank.
I have a good home, a stable family, friends, average grades, but somehow, something isnt there.
I feel like a part of me died, I hate the feeling when you end a book because it makes me sad, it leaves me empty and depresses knowing that once it’s over, it no longer becomes my world, but an escape that I now have to return back to reality. It makes me long for a different life.
I feel empty or incomplete. Something is missing in my life. It’s not just me, is it? We all have this feeling quite often, right?
That feeling when you are longing for something but you really don’t know what is is. Is my life that boring? Really? Perhaps I cannot see what I have at the moment and what I have achieved in life. I should dig more into my problems and see what’s bothering me and fill the void with a passion.
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Sometimes it takes a little bit of risk in conversations to reach a deeper level. When talking to your “friends” try to bring up things that you find important, ask deep questions, show that you are a real person. If those people don’t respond well to that, seek out others, try to break the game of shallow social mingle.
Maybe you can’t do this now, but try to surprise yourself, when the day feels dead, start dancing alone, or telling someone they look beautiful. Surprise yourself and surprise others and suddenly life can be full of color. Eventually you might find people who genuinely care. Life is about breaking the routine and realizing your potential for beauty, friendship, and adventure. Even if you can’t do anything spectacular now, try to do something small for someone, that can go a long way.
what you can’t find, you’ll have to create
I could have written the exact same post a few years ago. It only gets worse after that, when you go to university or college and don’t even get to know anyone there. I imagined going there and finding many good friends and being happy again, but that’s bullshit. What I want to say is that you should do something NOW and not just wait for life to get better. I made that mistake and this situation is what it resulted in. You still have a chance to get better.
You need adventure. Go wrastle with a field mouse. Or go to Canada and tame a moose.
This one time I was herding sheep and I got chased by a bull, it was terrifying but brilliant, tbh.