Unwanted

Im 55 and Im still waiting for that pat on the back from my father. He has never sided with me againts my younger sister ina ll my life. Not once. The most toxic person in my life. I am not interested that his father never gave him a compliment and made Hitler look like a boyscout. I have the right to be responded to with ‘DIGNITY AND ENCOURAGENMENT”. And if you cant give me encouragement,trhen shut up. So if I were to do it again, id let my father know how bad he has made me feel(I tried 3 or 4 times,a;; failed.) and if he didnt get it, id find a way to do as the Jewish people in the early 20th century did when their children brought shame on them like going to jail or getting pregnant. They would tell everyone their child died and they would disown them or move away. I think so many suicidal and depressed people ,if they just got rid of their parents or even a sibling or best friend many years ago, they would be so much happier. Does anyone notice its only in 3rd world countries where fathers can do anything they want to their kids and there are never repercussions. This isnt Haiti!!!!! Better to walk away from a toxic relative, even if they mean well (which most really dont,they pretend to) than lose your happiness in life which is like soul murder.