Alone

I used to be popular. Grades and everything was perfect. But the girls I considered my friends weren’t friends at all. They bullied me and I let it go on for quite some time. Ripping my journals, calling me names, making fun of the way I dress, spreading rumor, making me cry, and laughing at my failures. That’s when I ended my friendship with them. It just became worse. I started talking to new people, making new friends and they started making and spreading rumors to them about me in an attempt to stop then from talking to me. I became friends with a couple of people those girls hung out with and that’s when I started letting them in. Then they too stopped talking to me. Every single one of them used me whether it was help on a test, homework, tutoring, money, anything, and then when they received what they wanted, they got rid of me. Everyone just follows me and thinks they know me based off of what they say I am. I’m still being bullied. By them and by other girls and boys. Cyber-bullied and bullied in school. No one has done anything to stop it. I spend my lunch and break in a classroom to avoid people telling me things and bothering me in fear of getting hurt the way I used to in elementary where I was scratched, left with bruises. And chased around. I feel so alone and everything is so wrong. I feel like there is nothing else I can do because I’m so unwanted everywhere. I probably sound really childish, but that’s what been going on and I just can’t take it anymore. I’m dead. On the inside and I feel trapped and like I don’t know who I am because everyone just uses me as they please and I had become so many people to try to be accepted by at least someone.