Im not a perfect person ,
Awkwardly so much of my advice i wish i could listen too . Ironic rite huh .
I have what most people want .
Friends , Family , Popularity , A Boyfriend Who loves Me ,
But yet no happiness
I was raped last year by a guy i thought who loved me
Meanwhile i went home to my brother who beat me ,
This illusion that i put is so dumb
No one knows the real inside pain i suffer
Or how i really feel inside
I have bipolar disorder ,
The meds make me tired , but i can never sleep
I have stuff going good but the over whelming depression of the past
And being the topic of conversation good or bad is too
No one knows what lies in side . How bad i want to be missed
And dead
I fear myself too much
But i guess i spoke huh . . .
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darling you are a saint, because of this god will help you
No saint , Just Like To Lend The Helping I Rarely Get @Lala , God Cares But , I Wish He Could Fix This Inside Pain ! Dying I Feel inside .
honey you have idea how much i get thta
I Do , These Meds In. My Hand , I Wanna Take Soo Bad Hoping I Past Out And Go To Dreamland Where Life Is Perfect & Despensful , But Talking You Is. Helping Cause I Could Never Tell My Real Friends & Family .
i said to god at first i wanted to cure my depressin on my own, i felt foolish for asking for help when i had nothing to sad about in the moment, the past is real, and yu need his help,
I Dont If He Can Bring The Joy I Want , But Im Trying , Really Trying ,
what helped me was realizing, sadness is an emotion, happiness is an emotion, not a state of mind
Which is very true , but im feeling better thanks @lala really 🙂