Well… I’m 15. I’m scared to talk to people about my problems, so I thought, why not post what I think on here.
I’ve been going through depression for 3 years now. I’ve been having suicide thoughts. Thing is, I’ve been scared to talk to people. I know they are there to help, my mum, my nan and all. It’s hard to just speak up. I feel like I’m always in there way, so I hardly talk to them about my problems. I’ve told a few of my friends about my problems, but I feel like I’m being self centred all the time and I feel like I’m just being annoying. I’ve seen a councillor for 2 years, but they have not helped at all. I also hate to talk about my problems, which is a problem In itself. I try to let myself out but I just can’t. I’ve cut myself lightly, but I stopped a year ago or so. I’ve also been worried over what I’m seeing and thinking. I’m sorry if I’m blabbing on…. Umm… Well, I’ve been seeing things that aren’t there. I feel insecure and feel like when I’m walking from school, that someone’s following me. I’ve been thinking of ways to…. Umm… Sort thing is hard to say… I won’t say it, but I don’t like it. Sorry if I’ve wasted your time if you have been reading this. I’m not a very important human being.
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You seem like someone who wants to feel good inside u jus dont really know how to channel ur pain. Its good u stopped cutting. Even light cutting can be dangerous. I use to cut myself and pretend they where accidents. Then i started burning myself with a lighter just to stop the screaming inside of me. Just remember theirs always hope. Always laughter inbetween the pain. U have people who love u. It might be hard but try letting them and loving them back. Believe me when u look back yrs from now theyll be the ones still with u. I wish u all the happiness in the world?
Thank you so much, this means a lot. I still don’t really know what to do, sometimes I think a lot and that’s what really makes my head hurt. Thank you again. I hope your better too 🙂
Congratulations on quitting self harm! I hope you can keep it up. You mentioned you feel like someone’s following you? You should really let your counselor know about that. You sound like you suffer from really low self esteem and feel like you are not important but you are important. It’s ok if you need to talk about your problems we’re here to listen. I hope you start feeling better soon!
Thank you, I feel a lot better that I can express my feelings on here, I didn’t really know what to do. I just thought I was dyin inside. I don’t see my counselor anymore as they didnt help me at all. I’ve always tryed getting better, but I normall lose all hope that I have. Thank you again.