I’m fucking tired of living like this. I hate not being able to do anything about it. Can’t you see that you’re hurting me? Can’t you understand that the things you say tear me apart? Why does everything hurt so much? I’m blinded by all of these things you throw at me. I’m suffocating from all this pressure. I can’t help but think of all of the most painful ways to die, and how I would perform them on myself. I can’t breathe, I can’t think. I fucking hate myself. I’m so useless; I can’t do anything right. I do everything I possibly can to please you, and I still fail. What more do you want from me? I am no one. I have nothing. You’ve beaten me, alright? Leave me be! I’m done. I AM DONE! I just want happiness, I just want love. I just want someone to fucking care for once. Congratulations. You wanted me to be worthless? You wanted me to be lonely? You wanted me to be lost? You wanted me to be scared? Well you’ve achieved all of your goals. God, if you exist, let me wake from this eternal nightmare; I can’t do this anymore.
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I care about you. Really though, isn’t it time for a new beginning for you and the person?
this is exactly how I feel, too
I have been torn to shreds by the words and actions of many and specifically by one who promised me the moon. People do not have a fucking clue what they do to us. I guess what I am trying to say is I get it. How you feel.
The fact that you feel the way you do, that makes me love you and care for you. People who know what it feels like to be hurt by the person they try to please are the ones who would give so much just to be loved, and i think that “will” means you absolutely deserve it. You deserve to be loved.