You googled suicide and found yourself here? Welcome!
It’s ok, I understand your kinda confused with how you feel. Pain and anger don’t always just burst free from inside. Sometimes even sadness needs a hey turned to unlock what’s trapped inside.
Give it time if you need…we will be here
I don’t know what to do. I know I need to die. Nothing’s going to get better, and talking things out doesn’t help because I normally just end up judged and still helpless. I’m so scared and alone. I feel as if 85% of society has just beaten me verbally and physically. As exaggerated as that probably sounds. I don’t know how to truly express my emotions right now, and I’ve been called all sorts of things from people who were close to me, because they don’t understand and never will. Now I have nobody and nothing. This computer itself is technically borrowed.
You’re right….talking about your problems will not make them go away…but you should try talking to someone who understands what your going through…..I’ve literally been beaten down to nothing because of someone I fully trusted. He took my trust and every secret he knew about me to attack and manipulate me for a year. He broke my things, lied, and cheated on me. And in the end when I finally left him when I found out about the cheating, he spread rumors about me to all my “friends”. And they all turned against me and turned out to be fake….and where I live, everyone knows everybody. So I am even afraid to go out anymore because it seems every time I do my ex’s friends are around or all the bullshitters I thought were my friends are around…your not the only one that feels like society hates you…
Some of the hardest problems you’ll ever have to face, are right now. These moments are the ones that hurt the most. There are no words that can take away the pain. The pain is what you face right now in this moment. It reminds you that things are very wrong, and dark…can’t see through..
But you are showing courage..right now.
It takes courage to be human, and feel that pain that so many would rather just hide away. You have that strength right now.
And tomorrow is going be here sooner than you think, wether you want it to or not…life goes on. And tomorrow, you have to be stronger..because we are all capable of bing more than this. More than this terrible place where we all are guilty of begging for it..
It’s time to to get sick and tired of the guilt and the doubts and the fears. It’s time to use that pain, right now..here…out there in your lives.
We are on the brink already, we have nothing to lose by living our lives. But there’s so much that can be taken back if we just simply never say DIE!!
I’ll be very honest, @RealTalk30: I just took a screenshot of your words. I didn’t fully understand that last part, starting at “we are on the brink already”, but the rest of your words actually sparked something in me. Sort of a feeling of actual bravery that I haven’t felt in a long time. I needed that. Thank you so, so much.
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You googled suicide and found yourself here? Welcome!
It’s ok, I understand your kinda confused with how you feel. Pain and anger don’t always just burst free from inside. Sometimes even sadness needs a hey turned to unlock what’s trapped inside.
Give it time if you need…we will be here
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Not “hey”
I don’t know what to do. I know I need to die. Nothing’s going to get better, and talking things out doesn’t help because I normally just end up judged and still helpless. I’m so scared and alone. I feel as if 85% of society has just beaten me verbally and physically. As exaggerated as that probably sounds. I don’t know how to truly express my emotions right now, and I’ve been called all sorts of things from people who were close to me, because they don’t understand and never will. Now I have nobody and nothing. This computer itself is technically borrowed.
You’re right….talking about your problems will not make them go away…but you should try talking to someone who understands what your going through…..I’ve literally been beaten down to nothing because of someone I fully trusted. He took my trust and every secret he knew about me to attack and manipulate me for a year. He broke my things, lied, and cheated on me. And in the end when I finally left him when I found out about the cheating, he spread rumors about me to all my “friends”. And they all turned against me and turned out to be fake….and where I live, everyone knows everybody. So I am even afraid to go out anymore because it seems every time I do my ex’s friends are around or all the bullshitters I thought were my friends are around…your not the only one that feels like society hates you…
I don’t know what do either….I’m floating in limbo….I don’t know why I’m still alive..
I promise you..all of you..
Some of the hardest problems you’ll ever have to face, are right now. These moments are the ones that hurt the most. There are no words that can take away the pain. The pain is what you face right now in this moment. It reminds you that things are very wrong, and dark…can’t see through..
But you are showing courage..right now.
It takes courage to be human, and feel that pain that so many would rather just hide away. You have that strength right now.
And tomorrow is going be here sooner than you think, wether you want it to or not…life goes on. And tomorrow, you have to be stronger..because we are all capable of bing more than this. More than this terrible place where we all are guilty of begging for it..
It’s time to to get sick and tired of the guilt and the doubts and the fears. It’s time to use that pain, right now..here…out there in your lives.
We are on the brink already, we have nothing to lose by living our lives. But there’s so much that can be taken back if we just simply never say DIE!!
I’ll be very honest, @RealTalk30: I just took a screenshot of your words. I didn’t fully understand that last part, starting at “we are on the brink already”, but the rest of your words actually sparked something in me. Sort of a feeling of actual bravery that I haven’t felt in a long time. I needed that. Thank you so, so much.