A Peaceful End

You know its been a long time since I last smiled.I’m not talking about a casual smile…I’m talking about a real smile, a smile that actually means something.sure when I watch comedies I sometimes laugh, and that intern produces a smile.but these days my laughs and smiles feel more forced than anything.it gets tiring having to put on this mask of mine.its hard and it only serves to make me feel much more alone than I already am.im tired.I would love to sleep.I wish I could just go to bed and never wake up.i wish that I could dream a good dream and never wake from it.to be in my own peaceful world.where its quiet.and where its calm.im way to young to be feeling like this and most people would agree.most would just pass me off as a teenager going through a phase.but please believe me this is no phase.I truly feel this way.I’ve grown so very tired of living.all I want is a place where I can sleep.without any worries.without any obligations.without any burden.to sleep eternally and to never be disturbed.