I just can’t seem to get anything done.
I feel like there are so many things that I need to do and that I’m falling behind on, but my mind feels like it is stuffed with cotton. Even if I make a list, I feel as though I can’t remember anything that I have to do. Then I just get frustrated and go take a shower or make food.
I am just so tired of trying to keep up with society. All of the expectations and responsibilities that are thrown on me, I just can’t take it. I don’t feel at all prepared for college, or living on my own. Hell, I can’t even go to a Goodwill to drop off my clothes without freaking out. (Never did drop off my clothes). I have to rely on so many people in order to get through the day, while they can get by just fine on their own. I’m just weighing everyone down.
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I kind of get this.
I get this all the time.. For me, I think it’s because deep down I know that I’ll kill myself soon so I don’t see the point in doing such trivial tasks that contribute to something I don’t approve of. I only have breif moments of caring about it all, but the longest it has ever lasted was 4days.
I feel like a burden too, I had a breakdown 2 months before my exams and so I failed most of them. I spent that time imagining my death, writing suicide notes and lying in bed paralysed. But all of a sudden I got this moment of caring during the week I was going to kill myself in.. I hate it when that happens.. So yeah, my plan is pretty much sorted I just need to wait a little to get back to my emotionless state.
We can’t change society, I’m sorry, so you either adapt or disappear..