Sorry this is somewhat long-ish, but I really need help with this?
So, I was going to make an appointment with my doctor sometime this month because I actually want to find out what exactly is wrong with me. Whether I need to been diagnosed with anything else. If I actually have something serious with me. The whole shebang. Because my mood is up and down constantly throughout the day, and no it’s not “just being a teenager”.
I mean, today in my Geography I was in tears walking to the room, and refused to speak to anyone for fifteen minutes. (I’d already had a breakdown in the car on the way to school) Then I started laughing with a friend I sat with. Ten minutes later I literally despised the person behind me and argued with her because she poked my arm to get my attention. A few minutes later I turned back around to her and was joking around with her for twenty minutes, and then I started crying again. Then a few minutes before the lesson finished I was laughing and messing around like before.
And this doesn’t just happen once in a while at school. It’s every single day in almost every single lesson. Even my friends have noticed and are beginning to get pissed off over it.
My family have to deal with it at home to. And I get yelled at because of these mood swings. I can’t help it though. It’s stupid, little meaningless things triggering it. And sometimes when my mood changes, I feel like a completely different person. It’s like I can’t control my mind and body.
I can’t cope with this anymore. I hate sitting there, knowing it’s just a matter of time until something sets me off again, and knowing I can’t do anything to stop it.
Also, I want to tell him of my thoughts of hurting other people – something I have mentioned in another post a while back – to know if there’s something wrong with me in that kind of way or something? And I want to tell him about the things I see and hear – because it’s getting worse and my psychiatrist isn’t doing shit about it.
So, my question is how can I ask my doctor to assess me to find out if there’s anything wrong? And what would even say to him? By the way, in case this helps in some way or another, I’m 15.
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It sounds like you might be Bi=Polar
mood sings up and down are a symtom of Bi-polar
can be helped and comrolled with medications
Don’t go around thinking the doctors can diagnose, treat you and fix you. I know you didn’t say that but mental illness diagnoses are incredibly subjective. You are a guinea pig to your doctors. Help yourself by first trying to balance your routine, diet, chemical intake, and other factors. There’s so many chemical and poisons in our food, water and air. Try your best to take care of your body because it’s under constant bombardment. Look at the most recent dsm manual. Mostly bullshit “diseases” with a diagnosis code so a patient can go see their doctor and bill insurance companies under bullshit diseases like authoritative oppositional disorder for not following instructions in school and give you expensive psychotropic drugs that are slow to work (and many studies show that they’re highly ineffective) and cause severe withdrawal including “side effects” like depression, suicidal thoughts/behavior, violent thoughts/behaviors and of course the lovely effect of chasing off all your friends once you go from crazy to batshit crazy. Sorry to burst your safety bubble around doctors and medicine but I work in pharmacy. Take it from me kid, you need to do more research and figure out every last thing you can do before you let the doctors guinea pig it up with you while your parents pay the doctor hundreds a year to see you for an hour, pay thousands in insurance premiums/copays so they don’t have to pay full cash for you $800 a month Abilify rx.
Also, I know at 15 your friends aren’t geniuses but if they’re really your friends you can talk to them and let them know what’s up with you. It’s important to have good people around you. If your first thought is that they’re gonna talk about you to people or to each other- DUMP THOSE BITCHES and find good people.
LilithFaust makes some very good points OP. Be very careful and wary. It’s hard to diagnose a mental health condition at your age, because some of the symptoms of ‘bipolar disorder’ (which I have) are similar to ‘normal’ teen hormonal moodswings. Way too many youngsters are getting put on dangerous psychotropic medications, especially in the US (don’t know where you’re from). It’s good advice to do everything you can with diet, exercise etc to get yourself in a better space.