I don’t know

Finding a place where you belong is one of the hardest things i’ve ever tried doing, and anytime i’ve thought i’ve find it it falls apart, so i’d say it’s a permanent struggle for some. Some think that you belong where you feel comfortable, or where you have peace, maybe where you are happy, and that leads to other people to think that you only feel like you belong when you are at peace with yourself, since it’s likely the only person that will never abandon you in life is yourself (we are born alone and die alone comes to mind). My guess from all that rambling it’s that it’s a different pursue for everybody.

I don’t think this helps but i think i double you on age and i remember that back then i was nowhere close to find a place where i thought i belonged too. Found some along the years, spent some happy moments with friends, lovers, experiences, but they all fell apart in time. All you can do is hang in there until things happen and work in yourself to be ready for when they happen (or make them happen!) because no one knows how or when things happen. I really hope you can find what you are looking for.