It’s been a long sad break from this place. And man, I have no clue where I’ve wandered to. All I know is I’ve been more broken then ever these past two weeks. I want to be free. I hate feeling so chained up. Within my own mind claustrophobia is eating me away. My whole life there is one, only one thing I’ve asked for. And that is a place of belonging. Where I’m not thrown away like some non living object. I’m sick of living in the dump. You know what the dump is filled with? Worthless things that no longer have meaning or use. I guess there must be a reason I’m there. There must be . . .
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:O You’re in the wrong place then
Nah. They are exactly where they need to be. Sharing profound words with others. You’re right. Earth is trashed. Cuz humans came and took over. We ruined a perfectly good place. Really we did. And the angels ruined heaven. Adam and eve ruined paradise. Wth is left? Omg my head hurts
Finding a place where you belong is one of the hardest things i’ve ever tried doing, and anytime i’ve thought i’ve find it it falls apart, so i’d say it’s a permanent struggle for some. Some think that you belong where you feel comfortable, or where you have peace, maybe where you are happy, and that leads to other people to think that you only feel like you belong when you are at peace with yourself, since it’s likely the only person that will never abandon you in life is yourself (we are born alone and die alone comes to mind). My guess from all that rambling it’s that it’s a different pursue for everybody.
I don’t think this helps but i think i double you on age and i remember that back then i was nowhere close to find a place where i thought i belonged too. Found some along the years, spent some happy moments with friends, lovers, experiences, but they all fell apart in time. All you can do is hang in there until things happen and work in yourself to be ready for when they happen (or make them happen!) because no one knows how or when things happen. I really hope you can find what you are looking for.