I’ll stop trying to get close to anyone. I’ll stop trying to fit in. I’ll stop trying to find someone to stay by my side.
I can’t forget you. I keep hearing you whispering in my ears. Whenever I close my eyes, I still see you. I can’t accept anyone because I still remember you. What is the point of me trying to find someone else to stay with me, when I myself keep rejecting them? Why would I hope to find someone, if I know in the end I will leave them because they are not you? Why the hell would I pretend to be popular, when I know at the end of the day I will shut everyone off outside the room? I can’t accept anyone, because I only want you, I only remember you, I only see you.
It’s okay, really. I hate them all anyways.
I think you saved me, but perhaps it is the other way around? You chained me in your embrace, smothered me, moulded me, claimed me. Why didn’t I realize from the start, that just like how you had always found a way out from the darkness, that it would be you in the end?
But I will never forget what you have taught me. To fight, to hold on, to believe, to stand by my ideals, to stay on this path you have unlocked for me. I will fight, and I will cherish what I have.
2 comments
how did U get in my head?? I may as well have typed this my friend. my eye is single and immovable. I will never see another girl.
aw, hogpotter, I remember seeing your posts around, you’re an amazing person from what I’ve gathered, it’s tough to hear you’re in a rough position. Sometimes it feels like isolating is the only solution to being back stabbed or exploited, yea i get you. What you wrote at the end juxtaposed what you said earlier there *are* good people in the world that can make life worth living, despite the fact that there are bad ones, keep an eye out for them 🙂