i hate it here.

well i’m 14 and don’t really talk to people about stuff like this but.. i dont want to be like this anymore, i dont really want to live at all anymore.

summer break started 3 weeks ago and just before it i lost my friends, they started talking about me and all that stuff but i started hanging with new people and it only made me realise that i hate myself even more. i’m a typical teenager, i dont stand out like the rest of them.

i have a lot of family problems- my mum and dad argue a lot, i argue with them a lot and then a lot of name calling starts. i get called fat, ugly and a lot more by everyone on my house (brother, sisters parents)

i’ve cut before, but it was on my thigh at the side so no one would notice it but i think about cutting all the time, and recently i’ve thought about suicide.

i dont want to be the coward i’m made out to be because i haven’t dont it and its because i’m scared. i dont want to live but i’m scared of ending my life. i don’t want to talk to my parents about this because i’m most likely to get called and idiot and to stop thinking stupid, but i know theres nothing that can help me.