I’m want to kill myself in a few months.

The past few months have been utter hell. The love of my life dumped me and since we have the same friends, they all dumped me too. I used to live in a house with all of them and now I am out cold on my own. I have done absolutely nothing to my friends to hurt them, yet they have been cruel to me for no reason and ditched me. They were my friends first. They ditched me because they couldn’t be assed to help me out, he wasn’t hurt, so oh let’s all side with him and leave her for the rats. I would have helped them if they were in my position. I am alone. I got no-one. No friends, no home, no family, no life, no lover. My dad expired a while back, my mum is not there with me. No-one is there to help me. How could people be so cruel? I don’t feel sorry for myself.. I deserved it for trusting people too fast. Ever heard the quote ‘it’s not wise to be so open minded that your brains fall out’. I am scared.. scared to return to reality and the real world. There is no-one there for me and I have no motivation for a future for myself. I don’t see much point in living anymore, I have been so depressed that I can’t even get along with anyone. I don’t mean to be mean but I have seen so many horrible things that I just can’t be nice, I am scared to be nice, I will be hurt again if I am too nice. I don’t want to return to University ever again. I am safe hiding away from society here, but I cannot return… I want to kill myself before I return, that or drop out. My friends are tormenting me, they are so cruel, I am so scared that such cruel people exist. What if I encounter such horrible people again? I got no family to support me, I have been outsourced by family friends. Basically no-one.