Honestly I’m wishing I didn’t have a reason to be on here… but I do. Im a 20 year old college graduate, but I can’t get a job in my field to save my life…. you’d think it wouldn’t be so hard. I work at a grocery store stocking shelves…. I didn’t go into debt for this. Not to mention these people make me question the ounce of sanity that I have left. I haven’t touched a blade to my skin in 9 months. That’s saying something. Of course I get my share of bruises and burns from work but its not the same. I work with someone that still injures himself he calls it digging ditches. He is covered in scars whereas mine are finally fading. I miss them… I trace my fingers over them everyday. I just stare at his arms sometimes and wonder what was going through his head. This world is such a terrible place and I never really thought that but now that I’m an adult I hate it. I hate this world. It’s corrupt and I wouldn’t dare bring a child into this world. I have no doubt I would be a good mother but to make it suffer the way everyone is suffering I just couldn’t do it… its just inhumane.