i need so much help.. im basically completely alone in life, i have no friends i suffer from severe depression and basically my only and best friend was my father. it kills me to say that he passed away and now im at a loss of what to do i love him so much..
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So very sorry to hear it. Loss like that is so painful even at the best of times, and when one is down and feeling alone, so immeasurably worse. I hear you.
I know there’s little I can say. But remembering times when I felt utterly emptied out and alone, when I assumed I had zero chance of important human connections ahead, I did ultimately and wholly unexpectedly find new and dear friends, and late in my story. I would not have believed it when I was in the darkest places, and it is thin testimony coming from a stranger, I know. Yet it showed me that the depth of my despair was not proof of its future truth: there may be friends, support and affection out there for you that you absolutely cannot imagine now. I hope you will stay to find out, though sometimes that is asking a tremendous and bitterly hard thing. Thoughts to you, and great sympathy for the loss of your father. I hear in your note how much you loved him, and he you.
I’m so sorry to hear this AmDead. Is there any chance of you writing a bit more so we can give you more detailed advice?
Ishmael, your comment really ‘spoke’ to me. I have been in such a hopeless place myself lately, you have reminded me that I am seeing my options and possibilities through the tinted lens of despair, and believing that I will never find friends or positive connections again. Yesterday, I started some new voluntary work and realised that it was so helpful in so many ways. I also began sessions with a new counsellor. It’s given me that little bit of hope that just maybe, I might not be finished yet. Thank you.
I can also relate. The few friends I have just don’t get it or don’t want to talk about it.
And the only friend I really felt I could confide in was a childhood friend of my ex’s. I feel like that boat is no longer tethered to the dock since, while my ex and I attempt to remain friends, we continue to drift apart, which takes the one person I could talk about anything to away too as the distance grows.
She’s got her own problems too, but we could relate without judgment or jumping to conclusions. I wish I could help her more though. She’s gone through so much and I worry about her a lot.
It’s tough…
It’s also partly why I am here. I’ve met some really nice people here. It’s not the same with that personal connection but it really does help.
Im sorry you feel so alone.Alone might be the worst feeling of them all.I wonder-have wondered-if all humans are in fact truly alone.How can anyone know us completely when our hearts and minds -the inner us-cannot be shared completely?Its not possible to share everything.Its not possible.So many thoughts,dreams,desires unexpressed -We keep so much to ourselves.I hear you long for connection ,and you reach out-this is exactly what you should do-try.Keep trying.Dont stop.I once found meaningful connection at A 12step fellowship-NA-but there are other places to go.Alanon for instance helps people connect ,who have a very large variety of issues for which they are seeking support. Its def a place for maki.g connections and sharing feelings and learning coping skills…hope your despair passes..mine has passed before by waiting,and seeking contact.As misanthropic as I am now,I hurt terribly from the abscence of connection.
i feel so deeply alone, no person has ever cared to help with my issues because i have so many.. my life is such a pit of sorrow and despair i find it completely impossible to see anything good in it. the biggest issue is that if i do decide to leave this life, im afraid my mother will follow me for she cannot deal with the pain of another loss. therefore im stuck living in this life in which i hate more than anything i ever thought possible