I suppose I should be feeling better. Still everything is going wrong. A part of me wants to stop, a part of me just wants to go. How much longer will this fight continue?
It’s a daily struggle for me. I only know me so that’s my only reference. If you read any of my posts you’ll see I’m a proponent of meds at high doses in combos I like to call cocktails. Like anti anxiety with anti depression. I’m a pro so if you have questions ask. But you gotta get counseling and if you don’t like your counselor find one you do. They are everywhere
I get you. I mean I used to take pills. I’m old in this… It has been almost 5 years. So yeah. Still thanks. It’s just so fucking frustration that after everything… I’m still stuck. I take terapy, still I hate it.
Could be a passing thing or it could take a lifetime. I’ve been working at it for 20+ years since I was a kid in grade school.
There are times I could rise above it and times I don’t know if I want to make it, but it has always been there trying to pull me down.
Your situation could be different.
Well As I said I has almost been 5 years… maybe more. I hate this so much, and like you there are times when I’m ok… but there are so many that are just soooo wrong. I don’t know… maybe life isn’t for me.
I think the same. It’s just… there are no reasons to really live… it’s all so wrong. Society is sick, the world is sick and we treat each other with hate. We kill and don’t care… How should I find something to live for?
I asked this last night. Does anyone else feel jealous when someone gets murdered? Sometimes I do. Cuz I feel like they were short changed. And like those of us with si’s might make tbe perfect victim. Look. The bottom line is earth sucks. Some spiritual leaders believe this is actually hell or soon will be. That satan will eventually be let loose and serve the thousand years here. Whatever it is people are basically selfish. There’s really no good left. It’s just a matter of time before some idiot lets loose a nuclear bomb or biological weapon.
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It’s a daily struggle for me. I only know me so that’s my only reference. If you read any of my posts you’ll see I’m a proponent of meds at high doses in combos I like to call cocktails. Like anti anxiety with anti depression. I’m a pro so if you have questions ask. But you gotta get counseling and if you don’t like your counselor find one you do. They are everywhere
I get you. I mean I used to take pills. I’m old in this… It has been almost 5 years. So yeah. Still thanks. It’s just so fucking frustration that after everything… I’m still stuck. I take terapy, still I hate it.
Could be a passing thing or it could take a lifetime. I’ve been working at it for 20+ years since I was a kid in grade school.
There are times I could rise above it and times I don’t know if I want to make it, but it has always been there trying to pull me down.
Your situation could be different.
Well As I said I has almost been 5 years… maybe more. I hate this so much, and like you there are times when I’m ok… but there are so many that are just soooo wrong. I don’t know… maybe life isn’t for me.
Maybe it isn’t. I ask myself the same thing a lot.
I didn’t sign any contract saying I would live and there’s very little I can find to live for.
I think the same. It’s just… there are no reasons to really live… it’s all so wrong. Society is sick, the world is sick and we treat each other with hate. We kill and don’t care… How should I find something to live for?
I don’t know.
I’ve tried to live for people, but people either leave or don’t understand.
Today is really bad. Maybe today should be the day.
I’ve also tried that. And yeah… they always leave. always. I’m dying inside out.
I asked this last night. Does anyone else feel jealous when someone gets murdered? Sometimes I do. Cuz I feel like they were short changed. And like those of us with si’s might make tbe perfect victim. Look. The bottom line is earth sucks. Some spiritual leaders believe this is actually hell or soon will be. That satan will eventually be let loose and serve the thousand years here. Whatever it is people are basically selfish. There’s really no good left. It’s just a matter of time before some idiot lets loose a nuclear bomb or biological weapon.
You’re so right. The world is selfish and I believe the same as you.. It’s just matter of time. I want to disappear.
I find I do better when I remove words like “should” from my vocabulary. Just a thought.
I’ll try… thanks.