I’m doing this today evening. Don’t know what to do now. I packed everything I’m gonna need (not much, I won’t have a lot to carry), now I just need to get dressed and then I’m leaving but I have no idea where and how should I spend all those hours until evening. Can’t talk to anyone today because I have a big mouth and I’d just tell them everything. I regret not finding a suicide partner a few days earlier, when I was thinking about it, a day spent with another person wouldn’t be so long and boring. I miss my friends so badly right now, as if I haven’t talked to them for a month. I wish I could die with them near me, holding my hand or something. I’d like a hug now.
I get tears in my eyes occasionally. My mother fixed my bed, which somehow she broke before. Not gonna need it anymore.
Hope I won’t fail.
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Go put on the kettle, grab a pack of bikkies and something to read. Enjoy a hot cuppa and simmer down into the day ahead with a good book, a hot brew and some delicious biscuits as well.
🙂
Or watch a few movies. I can only send a virtual hug im afraid.
Id prefer you didn’t try at all but regardless good luck.
Hey n0oh would you mind telling us why today?
Haiku for No0h
Last day on this world
No hand to hold,she walks on
Broken like the bed
Haiku for No0h #2
Its ok to fail
Anything can happen,now
We wont look away
I feel the same. There are many of us. Happiness just doesn’t exist in my world, and it seems like it’s the same for you. I’m sorry and wish I could say that it gets better. So…… “Hang in there??…..