I want to cut myself so bad right now. It’s like the longer I go without, the more intense the urges become. I should reward myself for going almost 3 weeks without any bloodshed. Positive reinforcement, or whatever that psychology theory is.
It might sound weird, but I almost miss the smell of the blood, the feel, the sight. I could get so much red out of just a few small wounds.
Why do I miss it?
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I have the same thing. But when i get my urdges i distract my self with literally anything. Self harm is really frikkin hard to recover from. I was addicted to it because it showed how horrible on the inside i felt on the outside. I wanted someone to notice how misrable i was. But now i am trying stop cutting. I still get reealllyy really strong urdges sometimes but i try not to give in because it makes me feel better every day i stay clean 🙂 stay strong ????
that’s great that you feel better everyday you stay clean. To be honest the days I’m clean, I don’t feel any sort of joy or accomplishment.
Yep, you stay strong too. Thanks for your comment 🙂
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Yus! Go get some ice creams or make yourself some cookies!
More seriously…im afraid ive never really understood the self harm stuff so I don’t really feel like its my place to comment…but all the same I hope you can keep resisting the urges.
hey, it’s good you don’t know the concept of self harm. I never thought in a million years I would end up there, but I did. It isn’t fun, even though at times it’s sickly comforting.
I wish you the best too, and thanks for your input
@sadcigarette I am exactly like that, I try to distract myself. It’s been about two years for me since i’ve stopped but it’s true how the more I don’t do it the more I actually might do it.