I feel empty inside
There’s a void I cannot fill
I drink the emptiness away
I smoke the emptiness away
I roll to take the emptiness away
Though these temporary solutions
Hold no effect once I be sober
I miss the touch of a gentle human hand
I miss the warmth of another’s embrace
I miss the smile that follows the sweet words spoken
I miss being loved by another
I curl up and hold myself tight at night
My pillow squished in my comforting embrace
I close my eyes and dream of a paradise
One where a man adores me for me
Holds me and tells me he loves me
One that would be lost without my presence
Yet how can I expect another to love me
If I fail to love myself ?
It seems selfish to dream of such things
It seems far fetched to pray for it to become a reality
I am destined to be alone
With only my unbearable self to keep me company
And so I will continue to fill empty inside
With a void that could never be filled
No matter the substances I take to cover up the hurt
I was meant to die alone
And to die alone would be to find love
6 comments
Scarlett Dawn,
I’ve been with a lot of woman, I’m a romantic at heart, I to drink and wish for that perfect relationship, but really everyone wants that! and nobody has it! it’s an illusion we want it so badly that we make ourselves sick over it! we are only human, you want a friend a partner that’s possible, but lower your expectations and your idea of what love is. just getting along with someone is hard enough! that’s reality and a challenge it’s self. oh and your not a frailer either you do exactly what you want to do so your a success! 🙂 don’t worry about what others think because that’s what brings you down.
You don’t know true love until you have loved another; that much I can vouch for as the truth. And I know it is difficult to love one’s self, but to love and have loved another says more than we could ever show.
I’m a month short of my 21st and I know I’ll be alone before, during and after this event. I was advised to avoid this website and…maybe I should. I stand no chance on this website, nor the real world. So…why bother?
I love your poetry as well, truly top notch stuff – even for a Digger. 🙂 Thank you for sharing.
It seems selfish but it really isn’t……it’s natural to feel a bit guilty for the desire of love when you can’t even love yourself. You have every right to desire love. Without love there’s no point in living, at least from my perspective and I would assume many others think the same. Try thinking of all your characteristics that make you amazing. I’m sure you can come up with some, even if they’re just simple ones. Just make a list of all the things that make you uniquely amazing and just look over it whenever you’re feeling down…you might also wanna try looking into mirrors more often if you don’t like what you see (I’m not saying that you’re an ugly person lol) I’m just saying that our minds can create negative and untrue conclusions about ourselves when we don’t love ourselves. Use mirrors as a way to motivate yourself instead….anyways sorry for the long comment but I hope you find a way to overcome this. And I really wasn’t trying to say that you’re ugly, I’m just telling you this because I went through the same thing and my eyes started lying to me. I don’t know if you feel the same way about mirrors but I’m just giving you a heads up in case it ever gets to that point. Lol…wow I just made the longest comment ever.
I was planning on saying something inspiring and full of big and important words like everyone who commented before me did, but I guess honesty will have to do.
I love your poems and I really at least partially understand them. (No one person can completely understand another.)
Also, it’s not selfish of you to want to be loved by another, especially when you don’t love yourself.
And honestly, if you ever just want to talk to someone, please feel free to email me (check my profile for my email) and I’ll always respond. Promise.
I appreciate all your kind and truthful words. I won’t contradict anything but if anyone ever wants to talk, my email is also on my profile and I will always listen and help best I can.
For me; it is always easy to give advice than to take it.
Thank you and hope you are all feeling in a state of euphoric today xxx
Oh, I um can’t find your email. Could you repost it if it’s not too much trouble?